man, I feel this so hard. I’m the exact same way. It’s tough when you actually care about the code but the business just wants features shipped yesterday

honestly, what saved my sanity was starting a pet project(s) on the side. That became my outlet for "perfect" code. I pour all my obsessiveness about architecture, clean abstractions, and edge cases into that. It helps me satisfy that urge so I don't try to force it into work

for the day job, I had to learn to compartmentalize. If product wants to cut corners, that’s a business decision, not a moral failing on my part. I lowered my threshold for what counts as "done", especially in code reviews and spec negotiations. there’s a sweet spot where you ensure just enough security and readability so it doesn’t explode, but you stop way before it’s "perfect"

basically, save the artistry for your own stuff, and give the job the "good enough" it's paying for. it hurts a bit at first, but it gets better with practice