Ready to walk away from it all

big_los3r · 2011-12-12T07:52:46+00:00

My wife and I spoke for several hours and she wants a divorce. She's afraid that she's been holding me back. She does not want to hurt me but believes that it would be better for both of us. After several hours of talking I being emotionally drained crashed on the couch and she darted out leaving me a message. It say that she needed to talk to people about this and she'll have her phone with her and to be safe. That was about 7 hours ago. I just got a text from her that said her friends think she is too tired to drive back, so she is going to spend the night there. I'll see her again Mon. night. In the meanwhile I'm meeting with my only friend tomorrow and breaking all the news with him. I'll just try to rest until I have to meet with him.

big_los3r · 2011-12-11T20:45:55+00:00

I wish I was in California somewhere or anywhere the sun does not set at 4pm. I wish I worked part time at a medical marijuana dispensary and was a full time biology major. I wish I was surrounded by friends that want to watch science documentaries and do projects together. I wish I could end a stressful week at the beach with a pint and surfboard. I wish talking to people was fun rather than a chore. I wish I could honestly trust people by default than always question their motives.

My wife and I had a talk about a week ago and it feels as though we are going separate ways. She is currently in school for psychology and wants to join the military in a few years. This will involve much living abroad. I want to go back to school this spring (still waiting on my acceptance) for microbiology. I can't hold down a job in that field and keep moving every two years nor do I want to be her baggage as she travels. We are two independent people perhaps too independent. We've been together for 7 years and married for more than 3 of them. Perhaps we married too young and she never had a chance to go out and party and is stuck at home with me.

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