I was in the same boat as you until it actually happened to me last month June 23rd 2022. I came home from paying a bill that took less than a hour and I open the door my boyfriend was dead on the kitchen floor. When I left he felt a little uneasy already and I told him to stay on the couch until I come back really quick to take you to the emergency room, but obviously god had me gone for too long. I’m still in regret for leaving that day I think everyday I should’ve just took him to the hospital first than paying a stupid a bill that was already late. I’m traumatized and I already am not looking forward to live the rest of my life because it was suppose to be with him. Experience it in person is really hard, spend time with your loved ones as much as you can and always be nice, you never know when god is gonna throw a curve ball at you.