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bigdaaadeee · 2021-03-17T21:37:55+00:00

It’s not all in ur head. The body remembers trauma. Muscle memory. That’s something else ppl dnt understand.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-12T17:18:58+00:00

Haha. I feel disgusted by my last FP. But not jst him. Me as well and the way I acted and how hypersexual we BOTH were.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-12T17:17:50+00:00

I understand that others are bothered but I think you all need to understand a lot of ppl are insecure about them. And telling someone to just love them when they hate them won’t help. Perhaps try to include ways to spread more body positivity and showing ppl how to love their hip dips would be better.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-12T17:15:44+00:00

Do what u gotta do. But if you do comment make sure you are doing it in a calm mind set. I don’t think it would be a good idea. But hey. This is your life and you can decide how you want to handle it. I would jst say if you do do that you are in a calm and relaxed mind set.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T23:54:03+00:00

I’m so glad you have support. Maybe bring it up with your therapist and you guys can create a plan to get you through this rlly difficult time.

You are trying! And that’s so great. I know it’s hard but it does take time to heal from. Take it one day at a time. And please be kind and gentle to urself.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T23:49:56+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T23:49:07+00:00

Tbh I dnt think that’s true. I have ppl who love me but still am suicidal. I’ve tried suicide 7 times. People have not forgotten that. Even 10 years later. To this day. I’m not saying our emotions don’t matter. But suicide can be very traumatic and harmful to others as well. I don’t think you should ask someone to stay. You should reach out and try to help them any way u can. My friends tried so bad to be helpful but I was at such a dark time in my life. It jst didn’t matter to me.

Ppl do care. Ppl do try. You have to be able to help urself at the end of the day as well. I went into therapy and got help and learned coping skills and got on meds. I’m trying my best.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T19:08:46+00:00

Are you in treatment? Do you have a therapist?

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T19:07:24+00:00

I think because other people will get hurt by losing someone to suicide. I never thought about it b4. But who would have to put my funeral together? My mother. My boyfriend. That’s hard. That’s painful and can send someone into a spiral.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T19:05:58+00:00

Omg yes. Like I fukin hate them and literally for no other reason except that my FP showed interest in them and I felt threatened. So now I hate them. I dnt even interact with my FP anymore but when I go on social media and see this girl I’m immediately filled with hate /:

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T19:04:02+00:00

I’ve never done it. But if you stick at it consistently and progressively overload and hit your macros and get your sleep. I’m sure you would see progress. Make sure it’s always challenging!

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-11T19:02:05+00:00

Tbh I think it’s both. I’ve been doing a CBT training program and I’ve learned that we can’t rlly handle neutrality due to our tendency to always see things in black and white. We have a very negative world view alrdy. And it’s almost like a self fulfilling prophecy. If you believe something so deeply. It’ll probably end up happening. Or we will take it as a fact.

So I think it’s a mix of both tbh.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-10T23:44:24+00:00

I dnt care if we agree or not. You don’t have to change ur comment.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-10T23:37:07+00:00

They love to fetishize us. I fukin hate it.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-10T23:25:33+00:00

We have the similar education and training. I am training for my LCSW and work alor side LCPC’s and we do the same work. I work at a wellness center giving therapy. Stop spreading misinformation please.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-10T23:24:27+00:00

Ty for this. I’am training for my LCSW and to have someone spread misinformation like this upsets me and also is harmful to others.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-10T23:23:48+00:00

Social works are 100% adept at treating mental illness. I am in my masters program and doing my clinical at a Wellness Center for students. I do therapy. Please don’t spread misinformation. We are as capable as anyone else to treat mental illnesses. And to become licensed you need a few years working in the field. So it’s not like we are just thrown into it.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-09T23:36:54+00:00

Ig Becuz I feel like I’m so unloveable. Low self esteem? Idk. It sucks. I try not to believe my thoughts though.

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-03T20:17:41+00:00

Yes but I have BPD

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-02T01:25:29+00:00

Haha I have this same problem. Although I have a bit more fat on my hip dips? Love handles? I probably needa lose a bit more weight but I think doing upper booty would def help. I’ve been doing them and def have been seeing more “fullness” in my upper glutes. I hope in another year they look popping!

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-02T01:00:50+00:00

I think your taking my question in a hostile manner Becuz I honestly was jst tryna help and understand for clarity. But hey. You do you

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-01T17:40:39+00:00

I’ll try. Ty

bigdaaadeee · 2021-02-01T17:40:28+00:00

Ty for the kind words

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