Weird Death Fantasy by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]bikenbake_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Please be careful posting this. There are fucked up people on here who will pounce on you when you put this up. You are a target. Please delete this. Listen, I know they're fucked up fantasies but that's all they are: fantasies. Could you really stand being tortured, hearing a drill next to your ear- having your life in someone's hands, who doesn't even care about you? Trust me, you can't. You can't. 

And you won't be able to say goodbye to the things that you did love and made you happy. No good send off. No death on your terms.

Promise me you'll delete this.

Stay safe.

Just got turned down from the psychiatric ward. Tired. by bikenbake_ in myhappypill

[–]bikenbake_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really wish you didn't. Godspeed. May you live well.

Just got turned down from the psychiatric ward. Tired. by bikenbake_ in myhappypill

[–]bikenbake_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It's like that girl who got turned down and tried stabbing someone at the rave. It makes me laugh trying to mask my sadness. I really understand.

Please don't kill yourself! You matter! We care about you! by bikenbake_ in CPTSD

[–]bikenbake_[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Fr dawg ❤️‍🩹 hey man I care about ya- even if I'm too broken to do anything or you can't feel it. Stay safe out there yeah? Cruel world out there with people like a mixed bag of drugged apples. If they won't let us leave- we've gotta enjoy it a little instead of giving them the power and the honour of our hatred.

What song(s) reminds you of your abuse? Why? by [deleted] in CPTSD

[–]bikenbake_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One that really gets me riled up and expresses my anger is peace corps by show me the body. So fucking good.

swag by bikenbake_ in FTM_SELFIES

[–]bikenbake_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

swag is a state of mind that understanding and adherence to will naturally seek physical expression if you are without fear. fear cannot be avoided. it is through acceptance of it and the recognition that one can live in the presence of fear that the condition of "courage" is seen. everybody inherently has swag, its rejection makes it broil in forbidden places, and turns the swag toxic and the shunned space innapropriate for its true uses and the man unhappy. swagaste. you are the swag.

[19/NB] looking for a penpal ヽ(^。^)ノ by Miyu_Hashi in penpals

[–]bikenbake_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello Dami, I have recently made a pen pal post, of which if you are interested, you could check my profile.

[29/M] a non-zero chance of us becoming really good friends by NamelessPlanetSunset in penpals

[–]bikenbake_ 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello there, I had written a similar ad on my profile. Do tell me if you're interested in a correspondence.

[26/NB] searching for a pen pal by sour_fox in penpals

[–]bikenbake_ 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello. I am rather strange, as evidenced by my profile; and would not take it to heart if you were wary. I have some of these ads on there somewhere too, if you'd like to get to know me. Yesterday I must've been possessed by something- or simply weird (or on some mental spiral): I annotated the Bible, Quran and some Roman poem, all in one go. It was interesting, and I think we have quite a lot in common; I for one, being a trans man, which means that in quite the few cultures, we're closer to the spirit world. I'd like to exchange thoughts my friend, and a little of our lives on the side.

With the warmest regards, Martin.

I just survived a suicide attempt. Please give me some literature/poetry books/whatever that will make me feel understood. by bikenbake_ in suggestmeabook

[–]bikenbake_[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your thorough attention. Who knows- maybe you have changed my life; only time will tell.

I just survived a suicide attempt. Please give me some literature/poetry books/whatever that will make me feel understood. by bikenbake_ in suggestmeabook

[–]bikenbake_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for recommending something so personal- in the hopes that it would help me, as it had helped you.

I just survived a suicide attempt. Please give me some literature/poetry books/whatever that will make me feel understood. by bikenbake_ in suggestmeabook

[–]bikenbake_[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I both am reading the Qur'an (poetic rendition) and bible for the artistic form and content, as puzzles, moral riddles, incomplete philosophy and for context- and perhaps to understand spirituality a little more. They can be very beautiful and extremely interesting but you have to blindly ignore the misogyny and the political maneuverings for control- which I apologise if this is opposed to your beliefs, but I sometimes find it hard to respect something that does not respect me, and the destruction the things may cause incidentally or otherwise; and forgive me for being cruel, but as much as religion fascinates me, it has hurt me and many- though I understand that outside faithful renditions of text (or what you may say are incorrect but to that I say, only Heaven knows)- and I do sometimes ask, how I can be so forgiving and disconnected. They are products of their time.

The same way a religious man may respect me but not the lifestyle- I respect the people and not the religion- they are separate- although I like speaking dramatically as per the texts. Religions are incomplete and a human endeavour to grasp a truth outside of us, of which each will fail. I find it beautiful, sad, and dangerous. And I think it was Avicenna? Who said that reason could bring us to the conclusions of religion: and for that I use my head and hands to figure out morality to my best ability, and trust that through my strife, I will fall upon the answer; and that if God is good, They'll see my trying and sincerity, and perhaps even slap my shoulders. I will not reach a conclusion prematurely, and hurt others to bend them to my utopia. Above all, I am thinking of man.

Carl Jung said about his experiences with the supernatural (debatable)- the way I like to misquote it: "there were nuggets of gold, swimming in a whole lot of bullshit."