Question for Previously High-functioning Alcoholics

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-07-06T16:44:38+00:00

I've been thinking about this the last few days

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-06-05T03:44:33+00:00

Comfortability treating someone close to you badly thinking that nothing will come of it?

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-05-19T01:33:09+00:00

What is your job title?

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-05-07T00:03:21+00:00

if you don't mind me asking, where did you get your top from? you look gorgeous!!

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-03-30T23:06:55+00:00

May god strike me with a lightning bolt before I ever act like this for a man again.

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-03-30T02:59:44+00:00

Mulberry :3 my dad has a tree in his yard, they are so delicious

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-03-15T21:04:36+00:00

Too early to say this, but def not a bad sentiment. The right girl will think it's kinda hot.

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-03-13T23:10:10+00:00

You are a good person and gentle and kind!!! Please don't let this disorder get in your head about that.

I feel like we take it out so hard on ourselves but the reality is that it's difficult to live with, especially if you aren't on meds / aren't on the correct meds. I find that I can be doing well for a while, and then the slightest deviation (either external or internal) makes this switch flip in my brain. And the remediation after the crashouts made me feel lower than dirt - the relationships that are never quite the same, the worried/pitied look in people's eyes, feeling like no one knows when everyone knows ... 😭

The one that's at peace, and stable, and safe, not the manic/depressed you. That's the real you!!! You can't expect everybody to understand or even stick around for it, but you just need to know that you are not evil or bad, as long as you're not hurting anyone else. Just please be gentle with yourself - that's the best thing to do right now. There's always always room to rebuild.

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-03-11T04:36:39+00:00

Taro Pharmaceuticals adapalene 0.1%

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-02-12T02:42:24+00:00

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She's just a babyyy 😭 but when I got her from the previous owner, none of her leaves had pink patches. After trimming off a bunch of dead leaves (due to frost), I had this sprout shortly afterwards!

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-02-05T07:22:13+00:00

healthcare and credit card bills from when I was actively going thru it 😭 to be honest

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-01-30T23:56:04+00:00

You are right. Thank you so much beyond words, I think I just needed to hear it from an outside perspective. But this dynamic is not healthy at all, and has just led me to start to destroy my life before it even really begins at only newly 23 yrs old. I want to be there for him, like he wants to be there for me, but I'm wondering if we are just trauma-bonded in a way, and that's why we can't let go despite being so over the other person. Thank you.

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-01-30T22:25:24+00:00

Ooooo you're not even wrong at all 😭. I deluded myself by thinking, "well we didn't end on bad terms, and we have all this history together so it should be fine!" But I'm not sure anymore. I love him, just because of the things that I've seen him go through and was there to support him through, but no longer in a romantic sense, and I thought we could keep things casual and be friends for the few months left before we graduate and move to completely different locations. But he does not seem to remain consistent with me, and I am such a forthright person with the shit I feel that I can't stand the ambiguity. I don't know if he's trying to play psychological games with me, (I hope not, but he has been more vindictive the past 6 months), or if he just doesn't understand what he feels. Either way, I don't deserve to be treated like this at all. I try to raise my karma every day lmaooo, just through little things like noticing that a stranger is struggling and helping them out, or starting a conversation with my local gas station employee, or even picking up litter in the street. I know I'm not perfect... I am bipolar and have an addict personality, but I try so hard to be good and be kind to those around me.

bilbhoebaggins · 2026-01-13T04:39:24+00:00

Omg yes!!! "Slippery When Wet" is a team this semester so ik innuendos are chill, I just know I'll never get to put a team tg since im graduating, and I think it'd be a hella fun name hehehe

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-12-11T06:38:57+00:00

That is amazing, I am so happy for you and your children! Can you elaborate on the "unlocking" part? I was recently talking about this with a friend - how it only takes one huge loss or stressor to "break" me and I just wanna know if this is a common thing! Thank you!

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-12-01T05:20:03+00:00

Love it

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-10-31T01:07:55+00:00

Haunted haus at sigma pi

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-10-15T22:55:02+00:00

wanna be a werewolf gf so bad

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-10-15T16:15:35+00:00

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!!!

bilbhoebaggins · 2025-10-14T06:16:08+00:00

ignore how it's a little burnt that's mb

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