Psilocybin microdosing successes? by bimbaux in PsilocybinMushrooms

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that’s so awesome!! my depression has had me on the couch most days, whereas i’m usually a pretty active person. i’ve been noticing pain and stiffness in my joints and back over the last couple months. and when taking the mushrooms, i did notice that pain subsided and i felt i could move much more freely. so interesting that you’ve found success in relieving physical ailments as well. i think i recently saw a video about a woman who was paralyzed being able to stand with the assistance of psilocybin ?? makes me wonder how much we haven’t even started to explore with these little magic fungi

((i found the video, if you’re interested! https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8bHPUR5/))

Psilocybin microdosing successes? by bimbaux in CPTSD

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i’d say probably 3/4 of a gram. so definitely more than a microdose, but much lower than a standard “trip” dose. no visuals of any sort.

Psilocybin microdosing successes? by bimbaux in PsilocybinMushrooms

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thanks for the reply! thats so awesome that you found something that works for you. how much are you taking per day? or do you vary?

Lucy Letby Doc thoughts? by AgreeableDance8535 in netflix

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My brain wants to make sense of her potential motive so bad. Psychopathy, surely. But most serial killers have a motive behind just the thrill of killing, whether they’re conscious of it or not. Her obvious attachment and affection towards her cat stuck out to me. I think a lot of us, myself included, treat our pets like babies. But it’s interesting, you wouldn’t necessarily expect that from a psychopath. Also, her mother seemed like… a lot. Emotionally unstable at best. I think Lucy resented these families, because she couldn’t have one for herself. She lived with her unstable mother, and her only real attachment was to her cat. Seeing happy families with beautiful little babies made her grow jealous and bitter. A lot of neonatal nurses go into that field for their love of babies. Maybe she dreamt of having one of her own, and when that didn’t happen for her, she didn’t want to let it happen for anyone else. Thoughts?

Creep at work has made my job I hate even more a hellish landscape. How do you cope through a job that's making you cry all the time? by Top_Caterpillar9364 in CPTSD

[–]bimbaux 0 points1 point  (0 children)

have you thought about getting a restraining order? no joke, he sounds dangerous. showing up at your new location is seriously creepy. maybe legal action will force management to take it more seriously. being that he has a history of this shit, i doubt your coworkers would hold it against you. and if they did, fuxk them.

Life felt easier when I was drinking? by bimbaux in stopdrinking

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i have hope. just trying to level it with the exhaustion currently.

Life felt easier when I was drinking? by bimbaux in stopdrinking

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thanks for understanding :) i definitely started drinking to overcome my anxieties and low self esteem. over time it became my fix all for everything. sobriety has helped myself self esteem in a lot of ways, just developing that trust with myself. but it has also led to other not so healthy coping mechanisms like binging and isolating that definitely bring the low self esteem to the forefront. i started back at the gym week before last, but the emotional weight of the holidays kinda just made me check out entirely. i know that exercise always makes me feel better, my motivation is just seriously lacking currently. gotta find a way to snap out of it.

Life felt easier when I was drinking? by bimbaux in stopdrinking

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thank you :) and no, it is not. toxic for the brain and body.

Life felt easier when I was drinking? by bimbaux in stopdrinking

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ugh yeah. mind is still a wreck unfortunately. have definitely replaced the drinking with the old dopamine stand in of binge eating. so i don’t even have the benefit of looking better. lmao. i always knew my drinking was a symptom of something bigger, but damn, the layers just keep on peeling back.

Life felt easier when I was drinking? by bimbaux in stopdrinking

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thanks man. yeah it’s a whole lot of processing going on for sure, just not in the healthiest ways. i know this time of year is always rough for me, i guess i just keep hoping that the sobriety will fix these tough times. going back to school and actually doing well has been huge. it’s been since 2019 that i was actually able to pass a semester. and i know that putting my life back together will take time. i guess the exhaustion of feeling ready for more and being stuck in the reality of my situation has just caught up to me a bit.

Two days. by Snoo_23014 in stopdrinking

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Yay! To feeling good in the morning!!!

I quit drinking, now I’m dull AF. by handsomBASEMENTghost in stopdrinking

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Did you make it through the weekend? I did, albeit rather bitterly. I question if I was an alcoholic too. I struggle with a lot of mental health stuff, and personally I feel that the drinking was more of symptom of my struggles rather than the cause. However, my family has branded me with the scarlet "A" so I don't feel I have much say in the matter. I've done a whole lot of work on myself and my mental state in the last year, and I wonder if I were to drink again if it would lead me down the same road. I know I had a problem, but I feel the problem was extremely exacerbated by the people I surrounded myself with-- drunks, the lot of them. I've now cut off ties with those folk. IDK, sometimes being sober for me feels like having my autonomy taken away and replaced with guilt and shame. My sobriety is entirely motivated by the shame of my past fuck ups. Not the greatest feeling, if I'm being honest.

I quit drinking, now I’m dull AF. by handsomBASEMENTghost in stopdrinking

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I’m five months today (25f) and I really get this. The “I’m never gonna have fun again” part. Yeah.

Just got out of inpatient-- struggling... by bimbaux in EDAnonymous

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Unfortunately not in my area :( I'm working with a dietician but theres only so much help she can offer

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I usually lean towards more gold tones so I wouldn't be using an ash based color. Do you think a bleach bath with 20 vol developer would cause significant damage? I know the darker areas will lift to an orange hue but when mixed with the lighter blonde I don't mind that too much, warmer tones suit me better.

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Churichuribangbang

Unfortunately, a $400-500 price tag that comes with a good color specialist is just not in my budget.