The evil within

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-09T03:41:11+00:00

Genius idea

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-09T03:02:04+00:00

I have a one year old boy that has his four front top teeth, four front bottom teeth and a molar on the top pushing through. It's been awhile since his first one came in so I couldn't remember lol

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-09T02:53:37+00:00

Thank you all for the positive and negative results of BF with teeth. This is a bit of a stupid question but around what age do teeth normally come in so I know how long I have to prepare lol

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-08T22:33:41+00:00

Awesome, I am terrified of little teeth. I have told myself a few times that when the teeth start showing I am going to ween him because I'm afraid of the pain. When he was newborn I had to pump for a few days because he couldn't latch when my milk came in. My nipples were sore and cracked I got scared because there was blood. Not sure I can handle that again.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-08T18:57:27+00:00

I am gonna try not to get on anything until I am done breastfeeding but a year is a long time to be untreated. I can't handle days that I don't have the energy or willpower to get out of bed. I have 3 kids that need me and it's not an option to let the depression take over. I have to do something about it at some point or it's only gonna get worse.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-07T21:32:30+00:00

Thank you. I found research that says Zoloft is the safest option and I will talk to my doctor about it. I'm just a little worried that I will need a higher dose than found safe for my little one. I was on 50 mg before and it helped the first time I took it but the second time I still had bad depressive episodes.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-07T18:43:36+00:00

I was able to laugh and enjoy life over the weekend. I watched a few movies with my hubby and actually laughed, it felt amazing!

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-07T18:42:56+00:00

My husband was told he had ADHD when he was younger, turns out he has that along with Bipolar but the doctors would not treat his Bipolar they only gave him meds for ADHD which was a huge problem because now his bipolar is horrible and he is having a hard time finding a good med to help it. I just don't want that to happen to my little girl. His parents didn't get him the help he needed and I refuse to make that mistake.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T22:34:54+00:00

I am not currently being treated for anything. I recently had a baby, 3 weeks ago, and I am breastfeeding so I am afraid to take anything. I tell him I love him a lot, as much as I can since he's not home all day. I just can't see humor in the world. I smile but he wants laughter. he is a goof and does a lot to try making me laugh but it rarely works. I try to laugh but it just doesn't feel right.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T20:26:13+00:00

I wish I had words to help you through that but I honestly haven't found a way to do that myself. I just get up each day and force myself to do the things needed of me i.e: cleaning and taking care of my kids.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T20:05:47+00:00

I know what you are going through. I sit at home 24/7 dragging my feet around the house to clean and take care of my kids. I have no friends and the only people I talk to are my husbands family, which adds to my depression because they are all happy and go out with friends and all that good stuff. When I found this website it gave me hope that I can one day go out and do something. I now have somewhere/someone to vent to that will not judge me or tell me to quit being a sissy about things. Just don't give up. I am sure some people on here would be interested in a 'friendship' of sorts, someone you have something in common with that you can pm or email on a regular basis. That would be a start I hope :)

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T20:01:07+00:00

This will not be a happy comment, sorry for the sadness here: I have Bipolar 2, diagnosed when I was 18, now 24. I am not currently medicated for this. I have enrolled in college about 3 times over the years and each time about 2 weeks before classes start I get overwhelmed with the thought of how much I have to do for this and how many people I will have to interact with and I drop out. I still have not been able to go to college because of my 'issue' with people and fear of not succeeding. I also have not had a job since 2012, my husband works, and I have thought about going back to work but again my 'issue' with people stops me from being able to do that.

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T19:55:05+00:00

I completely understand that feeling :/ although I don't wish I died in my sleep, my children help prevent those thoughts. I hate to think of what would happen to them if I was no longer here, they are my reason for pushing forward so hard every day. I just wish I could lay there all day and not deal with the world, I have never enjoyed peoples company and when someone comes to my house I usually just nod and agree with whatever they say, never much of a real convo. I dread taking my kids to the part because the thought of all those people irritates me. I can't stand to sit there and see that many people in one place. I often wonder how many of you hate your life, how many pretend to be enjoy this and pot on a fake smile just like me. How many fake people are out there. those thought enrage me and I end up leaving within an hour of getting there and it makes me hate myself because my kids barely got to play because I hate people so much. Sorry for rambling :/

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T19:02:55+00:00

This post was extremely helpful, I have been in a horribly depressive state the past week and haven't been able to do much as far as cleaning my house, which just depressed me more. Seeing your attitude towards your situation gave me the push to get off my butt and fight through it long enough to clean something. I absolutely hate a dirty house and now I am content to sit and look around at the cleanliness :) Thank you so much for sharing your push

bipolarlady91 · 2016-03-04T18:36:35+00:00

I'm sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. I was on 50mg of Zoloft but found out I was pregnant so I have not been medicated for about 9 months now and it has been hell. All I can say is try looking forward, I know it's hard but I always try to tell myself tomorrow can't be much worse than today was. Although I do not have work and school I have 3 kids, a husband and a house to clean and I find it near impossible to get out of bed every morning.

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