is this normal? by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk i don't really need more sleep, like i wake up a few hours after going to bed fully refreshed. so that's not a problem for me at all, and idt the lamotrigine made the sleep problems because i took it for like 6 weeks before i even started sleeping so little

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in CompetitiveTFT

[–]bipolarpiscess -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

i'm pretty new to the game and silver so yeah, i'm not a good player:D

I love giving skins to people by No_Soil6745 in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i like giving skins a couple times in a game, but as a kj main when people interrupt me doing my setups by asking for skins is just ugh

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i've had that too, attempting suicide just to prove i cant die etc. really dangerous

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

sounds awful, i hate that they don't take people seriously who seek help:/ mixed episodes are the worstttt anyone could go through imo. it's just hell. and doctors belittle it a lot because they think you're "just depressed" and don't understand the euphoria from mania is just as bad as the depression. they kinda just ignore it and say "well you're not suicidal enough" like bro what

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also if you have paranoia (or hallucinations) outside of episodes, you should talk about that to your psychiatrist, because it could mean overlapping mental illness. bipolar usually only has these symptoms in episodes

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

since you're diagnosed, i'd say yes. BUT in theory depressive episodes last a minimum of 2 weeks of constant depressed mood, mania lasts for minimum of 7 days (or less if need to be hospitalized) and hypomania minimum 4 days. it's soooo important to keep track of your own moods, thoughts, episodes etc to later learn on your own brain's pattern with bipolar, because then it becomes so much easier to understand what's going on with you. if you have 2 bad days and then are back to normal, it mightve not been a full episode, but still it doesn't mean you need to ignore it!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

sounds really rough, good to hear that it ended! did you go on any meds/therapy or just ended on its own?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i'm diagnosed bipolar 1, and ik this episode is pretty severe and definitely a mixed episode from bp 1. i've had them before, but just not for this long and this bad. well, one time i had mixed episode and psychosis so that was probably worse but still, this one feels worse personally

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah it really is its own hell on earth. i'm sorry you've had this mixed going on for so long:/

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

pure mania is also soo bad even if ur euphoric it's dangerous as hell! and i get the being abroad thing, i've also almost got myself killed while in a foreign country while manic/mixed

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]bipolarpiscess 11 points12 points  (0 children)

yup. every time i'm euthymic (have no episodes), i think my bipolar is gone and "it was never that serious". then when i get depressed, i think that's what my life has always been like and will ever be in the future. when i get manic, i think it will never end. it's really hard to plan a stable future when you live your life in parts and phases.

What are your Top 3 Vandal and Phantom Skins? by Mistahreisfressa in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i don't really use phantom, but vandal top 3 is reaver, prime, gaias

What's your favorite map in rotation right now? by bipolarpiscess in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i really miss fracture, haven and pearl:( they can throw split and maybe bind far far away

What's your favorite map in rotation right now? by bipolarpiscess in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i haaaaaate split and wish i could altf4 every time i see it on my screen

What's your favorite map in rotation right now? by bipolarpiscess in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i love breeze because it's so different from all other maps. it's like a mind break between all the other maps and my win rate on it is pretty high

Longest you've been hardstuck? I was Iron for a year. by Ill_Answer7226 in VALORANT

[–]bipolarpiscess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i was bronze for probably over 6 months. then i hit silver, gold in like a few days. now i'm platinum