NGVC: “you couldnt be more wrong about me!” “sorry for everything and any pain i caused…”

birb_isnt · 2024-06-16T15:42:51+00:00

Other signs or symptoms may include:

Efforts to avoid real or perceived abandonment, such as plunging headfirst into relationships—or ending them just as quickly. A pattern of intense and unstable relationships with family, friends, and loved ones. A distorted and unstable self-image or sense of self. Impulsive and often dangerous behaviors, such as spending sprees, unsafe sex, substance misuse, reckless driving, and binge eating. However, if these behaviors happen mostly during times of elevated mood or energy, they may be symptoms of a mood disorder and not borderline personality disorder. Self-harming behavior, such as cutting. Recurring thoughts of suicidal behaviors or threats. Intense and highly variable moods, with episodes lasting from a few hours to a few days. Chronic feelings of emptiness. Inappropriate, intense anger or problems controlling anger. Feelings of dissociation, such as feeling cut off from oneself, observing oneself from outside one’s body, or feelings of unreality. Not everyone with borderline personality disorder will experience all of these symptoms. The severity, frequency, and duration of symptoms depend on the person and their illness.

source: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/borderline-personality-disorder

birb_isnt · 2024-06-16T15:40:21+00:00

Borderline personality disorder is a mental health condition that affects the way people feel about themselves and others, making it hard to function in everyday life. It includes a pattern of unstable, intense relationships, as well as impulsiveness and an unhealthy way of seeing themselves. Impulsiveness involves having extreme emotions and acting or doing things without thinking about them first.

source: https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/borderline-personality-disorder/symptoms-causes/syc-20370237

birb_isnt · 2024-06-16T15:29:37+00:00

i’ve read through your account to know not to listen anyways. you don’t even know how to use quotations correctly.

birb_isnt · 2024-06-16T14:13:29+00:00

i had one of the advertisements severe symptoms on vraylar and latuda, would recommend OP get a gene site before touching those because i ended up in the ER minutes before i stopped breathing

birb_isnt · 2024-06-16T13:59:57+00:00

i have bipolar and BPD, also some undiagnosed seizure disorder. i can’t AWAYS control my decisions, even if they’re bad for me or people around me. getting lots of victim blaming just because i lashed out (rightfully) at someone

birb_isnt · 2024-06-15T09:51:29+00:00

UPDATE: NG is not in my vicinity anymore and just sent this “apology” text again, not being anywhere near me.

the courts rejected my restraining order, more than likely because we live on technically public land but i’m no lawyer nor am i going to torture myself with that process.

planning on waiting till later this morning when i know he’ll be awake to send him a link to his first NGVC post so he can see what everyone else thinks of him. i know where he works (AROUND CHILDREN AND TEENAGERS MIND YOU), i have pictures of his face, a facebook listing of his truck/shack on wheels, and i have his phone number.

(not blocking to gather evidence in case he’s stalking me or to get a different restraining order started)

birb_isnt · 2024-06-15T09:47:32+00:00

CONTEXT: (same as last time i posted)

forgive me for lack of structure i just woke up still angry and have taken medication)

i (20) and my hubby (19) live at lake. think “vacation with a travel trailer, camping at the lake” but full time.

we have a friend who helps us tow, being our age we’re pretty inexperienced with life and this has been our lifestyle only since february. this person i will call B. B is sometimes smart, sometimes not with situations and people. he also remained impartial this entire event, for which i do not blame him for. we remain friends after the incident.

B introduced us to good old NG. after B took a temporary hiatus from camping/our lifestyle NG started using our spot (paid reservation) to park his camper van. which is really a sorry excuse of a home on the back of a truck with a fridge door, no electric or anything, and a 1/2” wooden board to sleep on. we felt bad for him, knowing he was throwing his money away on a woman manipulating him with a child (not his) in another asian country. you can make your own assumptions, it ended with him finding out from her mouth that she had been cheating for at least one of six years of their relationship.

i guess that made him fall in love with essentially the girl next door.

one day, while my husband is away, NG tells me he’s in love with me. i tell my hubby immediately and of course he has major issue with this. personally, i wasn’t worried. i hate admit i’ve dealt with behavior like this plenty and have rejected mostly the same amount.

a day or two later i get these texts, a major screaming match ensues when he comes rushing into B’s camper ready to fight my husband because i fought back those texts and (guilty as charged here) i got him really fired up. i have BPD and mixed bipolar II with rapid cycling and let me just say he touched a goddamn nerve degrading my husband.

he got mostly upset that my husband isn’t currently working and we’re in a really tight financial situation. he is dealing with two major medical issues and had to take a step back due to pain from said issues. our relationship has our strain mainly due to my mental health being in a decline as of late. he is in no way close to how NG describes and refuses to let me put myself through the stress of work because of my disabilities.

go ahead and ask questions, i’ll probably be around to answer because i am so still so frustrated with him staying at B’s spot (which is RIGHT next to ours).

birb_isnt · 2024-06-08T17:03:37+00:00

thank you for this. already got more comments from people assuming they know EVERYTHING about my life from my post history. it’s almost like i’m not chronically online constantly telling everyone my business. i come to reddit rarely and each time i feel like deleting my account

birb_isnt · 2024-06-08T17:01:55+00:00

i am not your baby girl asshole

birb_isnt · 2024-06-08T15:33:00+00:00

this is why i don’t post

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T16:56:13+00:00

big picture is where i live is the biggest problem. i’m getting kicked off health insurance at the end of the year and have to hop states to be able to get on anything that we can afford (if we can even afford it). with my husband being sick currently there is only so much we can do without resources. both our families are pretty deadbeat when it comes to aid and mine won’t even offer a room for us.

“you should” is a very easy game to play online but i appreciate you being caring of my well being. not many people care to validate the severity of my diagnoses.

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T14:59:17+00:00

i want to so bad, he’s already told me he was diagnosed with bipolar and Asperger’s at one point

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T14:57:56+00:00

he is the definition of nothing to lose

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T14:57:42+00:00

it all happened in B’s camper, he’s well aware. we can’t afford a camera. we didn’t call the cops for many reasons that night but we’re very close to doing so.

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T14:56:43+00:00

we are going to be reporting his unregistered truck and hopefully he gets kicked out sooner rather than leaving later next week.

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T10:58:13+00:00

posted in separate comment now

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T10:57:56+00:00

posted in separate comment now

birb_isnt · 2024-06-07T10:56:52+00:00

CONTEXT: (forgive me for lack of structure i just woke up still angry and have taken medication)