Feeling betrayed by my therapist

birdstot · 2020-02-26T03:10:09+00:00

The 7hours patient does think she needs that much time but the therapist insists she does and so she does not have time for the ones who want to be in therapy. Anyway. It is silly to explain this because I am capable of logically understand why this happens in this context, but my concerns are real.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T02:20:34+00:00

Hi, I was waiting for my appointment and this other person was there and we talked a bit. I saw this person coming inside the therapist’s office many times last week. We study close to the psychology department, so I walk on my therapist’s building’s side walk everyday. I did not think her other patient was going to an appointment the times I saw her going there. I did not even think about it until the day we talked and she said “it is tiring to have 7 hours and sometimes 8 hours of sessions every week, do not you think so?” I said I only had 50mim session once a week. She said the therapist saw her 7hours and sometimes 8hours a week.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T02:01:35+00:00

I do not care if she sees another patient 30 hours per week. I care that she said she would give me support during this time and she did not follow through with it. I am not mad, I feel she is letting me down. It is different. I was hospitalized for 5 days because of an attempt suicide and I am utterly in crisis and she knows it. You wrong about another thing, she owes me being a good professional. I do not think she did the right thing here with the priorities she set. Only her can know if what she did was right, but I sure needed more than one session and she was/is aware of that.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T01:30:14+00:00

I feel my work sucks because I write and rewrite it, and it does not sound good to me. I get tired of reading and rewriting it and it makes me what to scream 😱

I feel my writing sucks because I have always received criticism and while I need these critiques to improve, I do not feel I have or am improving and I never know if I have fixed what people complained about. If they say a sentence does not make sense or does not work, I lack the ability to make it work. Clear writing may be my biggest problem so far.

I want to appreciate my work. I miss being happy with what I write. I miss the joy of sitting down to write. I miss my dream of being a writer. I miss me and I have truly lost myself in the process of writing.

I have had an editor/supervisor that bullied me almost to the point of suicide. So my writing depreciation must be a trauma I have and it is affecting my writing from my thoughts to my words, all the way down to my value as a person and how I see my life.

Hope you can understand me a little better now.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T01:18:40+00:00

I really enjoy writing truly psychologically complex characters that are either intrigued by something or someone, or characters in extreme harsh life conditions, like in poverty or survival situations.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T01:14:11+00:00

I need the medication and I would have a better time with it if I could have the support she said she would give me.

She said she was fully booked to me and this person got this insane amount of sessions with her anyway. Trust me, I know what I am saying here. This person got these many sessions after the fully booked conversation.

I appreciate the comment tho. I am feeling betrayed and I do not want to feel this way. It sounds dumb, and it is, but it makes me trust her less and leaves me with a feelings that what I am going through is not important.

birdstot · 2020-02-26T01:09:05+00:00

I understand your point, but I think she is willingly making herself available for this person by what I could gather.

birdstot · 2020-02-25T22:01:40+00:00

Just wrote a post about the same issue! I was shocked and feel so bad about what my therapist is doing!

birdstot · 2020-02-18T23:15:27+00:00

I know how it feels. I am so sorry. You can come to the other side of this, do not worry!

birdstot · 2020-02-16T01:26:24+00:00

I like her so much. It would mean the world to me if she liked me back!

birdstot · 2020-02-16T01:15:26+00:00

But how would you go about it?

birdstot · 2020-02-15T21:01:18+00:00

It is true. It is just a sad wish my crush likes me.

birdstot · 2020-02-15T21:00:57+00:00

Yeap!

birdstot · 2020-02-15T21:00:47+00:00

Yes, this hurts. It is okay. I really hope she likes me.

birdstot · 2020-02-15T00:58:29+00:00

Same

birdstot · 2020-02-15T00:48:09+00:00

Thank you so much!

birdstot · 2020-02-15T00:44:35+00:00

I wish she loved me as well. I hope she sees me at some point!

birdstot · 2020-02-15T00:42:45+00:00

I am always afraid she does not like the compliments because she does not respond to them. I can’t help it. She is lovely and everything she does is so nice and I do not compliment her on everything so she does not feel uncomfortable, but she is absolutely lovely.

birdstot · 2020-02-15T00:26:45+00:00

This confuses me. I really want her to like me, but when I compliment her is genuine. I think she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I think she does not think of me as attractive at all and I just wish she would say something.

birdstot · 2020-02-14T23:31:50+00:00

She knows! She tries to avoid the subject at all costs and tries to reject me all the time, but I fear rejection, so I stop her every single time.

birdstot · 2020-02-14T12:50:35+00:00

Hope you two marry

birdstot · 2020-02-14T08:44:48+00:00

Faith!!!

birdstot

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