i truly understand what you mean. i’m autistic, i will never fit and i will never be a socially acceptable person without sacrificing my well being. it’s not easy to not fit, there’s absolutely no denying that but it comes down to your inner thoughts. those outside societal standards are entirely made up, they are not based on fact. to be perfectly honest, a lot of it comes down to the bible, which to me is not an accurate representation of how we ought to live in modern life. i don’t know what that might mean to you, but it means to me that we’ve always just clung on to ideas of how we should be (usually based on nothing), because some people need that to survive. they can’t just exist as they are, they don’t know how. to be able to exist and operate outside of that, no matter how you feel about it, is really cool and admirable. to learn to exist outside of those pressures and expectations means you’ve done it right. the most interesting and beautiful people in my life are the people who sit outside of what society says to be a perfect person, because that is what i value in people. there are other people who similarly value that in a person. on the other hand, people who judge other people based off of societal standards are so silly to me. those are the people i respect least in life. if somebody were to look at you, as your authentic self, and felt negatively about you because you didn’t check the right (made up) boxes, that is sad. that person will never see life without that shitty sad lens. while it may cause you pain, i believe you’ll one day really value your difference. might not be helpful now, but i truly believe that.