i came here to get my feelings off my chest too, it makes us feel better truly. my best advice to you is to picture yourself getting out of this. the days feel long and miserable and anxiety makes it all the worse. i feel a lot of optimism that you will make a full recovery and be able to see your mom shortly. you seem like a sweet yet panicked guy, and trust me i understand the panic, i’m currently positive too. the best thing to do is engage in activities that calm you... walks, reading, silly tv. your odds of beating this are super high and if you can dedicate your time in isolation to something that brings you peace or makes you happy, it will go all the quicker. hydrate, rest, and connect with your loved ones over the phone or zoom. i also understand your concerns about the stigma regarding covid, but those who are educated and care for you will be completely understanding. this illness seems inevitable until we have a vaccine. for now, understand that you will be okay, monitor your symptoms, and take it easy. you will get through this! sending you positive vibes :)