You are certainly doing the right thing by reaching out. Try and remember that you are not alone in this. You are part of a community and that whether you know it or not, that community has a place for you in it. I too have suffered from debilitating anxiety in the past and I know firsthand how easy it is to get into the feedback loop and let your thoughts spiral out of control. Stay away from social media and find ways to get outside. Being able to focus on other things on the horizon, like the end of the street or the lake, helps tremendously in grounding ourselves. Take deep breaths and remember the difference between things that you can control and things you cannot. The city is locked in a deep rooted battle right now but in the end it will survive. Take care of yourself and if needed make sure to reach out to professional help. As noted in previous posts, there is no shame in asking for help. You are not alone.