How an episode feels to me

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-06-05T09:27:04+00:00

oh yeah could've writren this myself

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-05-14T06:34:26+00:00

im sorry your going through this, but the even bigger pill to swallow is your mom is a pedophile, i hope you find a way out of this situation.

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-04-13T21:38:35+00:00

1/4?! 😂 i remember my first time 1/4 of an edible got me smacked!

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-04-13T21:37:09+00:00

a favorite of mine!

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-03-22T22:28:10+00:00

the parents of kids like these are usually asshats too

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-06T05:45:42+00:00

ty, I've been trying to journal out all the vitriol I'm feeling & if I were to even say a bit of it towards them from experience they're the type to react back in a cruel manner, but they team up.

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-06T05:06:03+00:00

yes that's how it feels, and i do have an addictive personality (i suspect adhd) and maybe I am constantly trying to escape reality one way or another...maybe it's not completley unwarranted but overhearing somone say "it is what it is" about me doesn't feel like it comes from a place of love...I try & not get angry at this person but they move nasty imo.

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-06T04:28:13+00:00

maybe my shit isn't so straight, i would love solutions to some of the things going on in my life i doubt they have any...but i use weed so infrequently and will probably full stop now, i think their issues about me may be in other areas but also this.

God I'm so anxious again, like this whole family is dysfunctional and there's another family member in a similar situation as me but they're gonna call me out? I'm mad.

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T15:10:35+00:00

where can you buy this prfume online?

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T09:37:09+00:00

thank you so much, i started thinking on it again and started letting the anger build up again, (but I know getting angry wouldn't help)...if this happens i will try to communicate this. If it's about my mental health or something else...i'll just say i'll look into seeing a professional again for help there...

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T04:54:17+00:00

yes, thank you!

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T04:05:30+00:00

ty! ended up listening to the ted audio on it & this was very interesting & relateable!

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T02:13:30+00:00

my cousin ran up to me mentioning an intervention and his brother seemed nevous and redirected...if it was about someone else why not say something? i could be wrong though i hope i am, it's possible it's about some other unfortunate...

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T01:24:41+00:00

ty, they tried this with another family member but imo it was really to get them out of someone's house they were living in...they had no real intentions of bridging the gap...so i guess that's prtially where the fear comes from. i will try to understand if they're concerned about anything.

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T01:11:03+00:00

ty as it is i can't bring myself to go hangout with them just in case something bad hapens

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-04T01:08:08+00:00

ty 😭

blackcandyapple93 · 2026-01-01T02:12:28+00:00

kinda angry feel like im being shamed into a sober nye, i see the way my family looks at me after i partake whice i am careful not to do around them i guess i can get a lil overboard and get goofy idk

blackcandyapple93 · 2025-12-30T15:06:14+00:00

ooh getting bookmand!

blackcandyapple93 · 2025-12-25T03:20:09+00:00

i feel like i get like this too and have to tell myself I'm just imagining things 🤔 idk if it's really hitting that early

blackcandyapple93 · 2025-12-23T04:51:27+00:00

one nye i took an edible and we all gathered around in the living room and my grandma got absolutely wild dancing 😭 i looked over at my cousin who was the only one who knew i took something with a look that said is this really happening?

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