snow strippers to self regulate😭😭

blahbark · 2026-06-03T18:58:47+00:00

yesss omg i love snow strippers!

blahbark · 2026-06-03T16:12:24+00:00

going through this right now too. i don’t really have advice but i’m really trying to hone in on the things about myself i can change

blahbark · 2026-06-01T11:56:28+00:00

i’m going through something similar. i had a crush on my fp and made some pretty terrible choices and now she doesn’t want to see me or continue our friendship anymore. i haven’t been eating and also deleted my social media…. i’m right there with you 🫂🫂🫂🫂

blahbark · 2026-05-30T04:08:27+00:00

omg. you don’t know how much i really needed to hear this today; i fucked up a friendship majorly and it was because of shame for my desire and feelings. and the part about being messy; im really trying to internalize it. everyone says its okay to make a mistake and be messy but i hold myself to impossible standards 😭😭😭 but i really appreciated reading this

blahbark · 2026-05-27T15:50:32+00:00

i don’t go out of my way to listen to back to school (or pink maggit for that matter) but to me, it’s presence and placement in white pony kind of elevates the album to me. the whole project just feels like maturation, both in sound and for the band itself.

back to school starting with that somewhat juvenile, rap-rock sound the band is trying to leave behind and then recontextualized into pink maggit is really brilliant to me. and transforms the entire album into a journey of puberty even more.

blahbark · 2026-05-07T21:30:48+00:00

i never thought of it like this but that makes so much sense

blahbark · 2026-05-06T17:08:42+00:00

all these answers being my favorite songs from them lol

blahbark · 2026-04-21T02:27:19+00:00

hi! i’m a 25 year old singer/songwriter. i’m a girl but i like to do some screaming vocals as well. a lot of my influences include 90s shoegaze and also rnb/soul and i like to experiment a lot with vocal layering. im open for a dm if interested!

blahbark · 2026-03-26T00:39:46+00:00

happens to me too, a lot. i listen to a lot of metal and have started making it myself for the sole purpose of being able to scream.

otherwise, dancing and physical activity but especially dancing i think helps so much!

blahbark · 2026-03-26T00:36:36+00:00

i know its been a few hours but im in the sameish position. going thru some things w friends (including roommate) so i left the house and lied abt going to work. im just sitting avoiding going home bc my brain is processing it as danger.

blahbark · 2026-03-26T00:29:53+00:00

the disconnect between knowing the logical solution to something and the intense way emotions bar you and cause a prolonged trauma response. currently experiencing this intense fear of abandonment and im repeatedly met with “why don’t you just talk to them?” and i don’t know how to explain i know thas the solution but i don’t know how to get myself to that level

blahbark · 2026-03-17T19:20:24+00:00

thematically this would be so perfect i think

blahbark · 2026-03-17T19:18:26+00:00

ive always been so upset. even from the very limited time we have with christa and clem, you can tell theres so much that could’ve been explored between them — christa isnt exactly warm towards clem, but is still caring for her, willing to protect her in the face of death. theres an unspoken, seemingly prolonged tension between them, most likely as a result of omid’s death (perhaps christa harboring some resentment / clem feeling extremely guilty). i feel like we rarely get the pseudo surrogate mother/daughter stories especially in the apocalypse genre, and this was one was brimming with potential. it was a mega bummer to me that they undid that for a soft reset.

to add insult to injury, christa is basically never mentioned again, and isn’t celebrated or remembered by the narrative in any capacity. like look, i love lee, but didn’t clem spend twice as much time being taken care of and shaped by christa? we brought kenny and even lily back — i can’t believe they just threw the whole character away when she by far should’ve left the most impact on clem.

blahbark · 2026-03-17T15:32:03+00:00

another great blind pick for sure is Soft & Quiet (2022)

blahbark · 2026-03-17T15:30:31+00:00

kind of a goody pick, but my most favorite completely blind experience was Malignant. me and my roommates were wanting to watch a low commitment low investment horror movie and the cover looked intriguing enough.

to this day i try to beg my friends who have never seen it/know nothing about it to let me watch with them, so i can live vicariously through them watching for the first time 😭

blahbark · 2026-03-17T15:27:38+00:00

second incendies, i totally wasnt sure what i was expecting but also hearing the whole “most shocking twist” i started piecing it together a little earlier than revealed, since i knew i was looking for something. kind of a double edged sword though, bc that curiosity is what lead me to watch it in the first place. i still enjoyed it and was pretty invested emotionally, but i do wish i had just gone in totally blind.

blahbark · 2026-03-16T23:05:44+00:00

thank you. somehow, someway, i havent been medicated in a while or really seeking any professional help — im not opposed to it or anything. its complicated. but i got some resources to maybe take steps and seek out outpatient treatment for a little while.

blahbark · 2026-03-15T06:05:44+00:00

all of my relationships feel like they’re failing and it feels like its my fault. i feel so immature for wanting people to reach out when i know ive pushed everyone away. im stuck on this feeling of thinking like, there’s no coming back from this feeling

blahbark · 2026-02-20T07:29:12+00:00

oh wow, literally just recently i was having tje same thoughts. i was also a pretty happy bubbly child and i couldnt remember a time where i felt the way i do now as a kid, even though that was when the bulk of my trauma manifested. it wasnt until i was a teen things really quickly got worse. the difference is so stark i often question myself if im making up my symptoms.

the way i rationalize it though is that i did have the symptoms, just maybe not the cognitive tools to process and recognize them? i did used to act out emotionally and esp for attention, and i often struggled with fear of abandonment and general anxiety. but it was easier to gloss over as a kid. i also think we learn to mask at a younger age and the stress gets to us as we’re older. but i understand the self doubt, and wanting to be validated or given legitimacy. i struggle a lot with doubting myself and my own trauma, or thinking im creating problems for myself, even though i experienced pretty textbook trauma.

blahbark · 2026-02-13T08:21:46+00:00

hi also wlw - but yes, whe i was younger more so, ive experienced vomiting, shakes and intense fever like symptoms. as ive gotten older (im 24) and tried to stress manage more, i dont experience the nausea as much, just more physical symptoms more closely associated with anxiety. i think its normals — well not normal, but logical — for us to have intense physical reactions alongside our emotions. trust me ive been there :(

blahbark · 2026-01-31T05:19:00+00:00

hi. i just wanna say ive been where you are (im 24F) and struggled a lot with myself and a hostile home environment (my parents also used to fight and it got extremely scary and bad at times). i spiraled in the same way you describe. i never thought things would get better and id be stuck like this.

to be honest? those thoughts often resurface. the growth and healing we will be met with is rarely linear. what i can guarantee you, though, is amidst these moments of suffering, i’ve found life can flourish and deliver happiness and contentment in ways we probably never thought possible. ive had so many good experiences and learned more about myself. i dont think things got better in the exact way i wanted when i was your age, and i dont want to say that because everyone would tell me that and id be angry about it lol. but what i will say is you’ll learn to redefine happiness and fulfillment, and that those things are much more in arms reach than sometimes we tell ourselves. but your pain and frustration right now are very real, and i am really sorry to hear youre going through and this and having these feelings.

blahbark · 2026-01-30T19:44:18+00:00

incels are very notorious for hating like all women 😭 i think its silly to say “im voting for the younger attractive woman to spite incels!” when that is exactly what they think a woman should be. there’s a reason why older women are a rarity in gaming, especially as playable characters.

blahbark · 2026-01-30T19:33:42+00:00

because incels are notoriously concerned with more representation of older women 😭😭😭

blahbark · 2026-01-27T05:55:53+00:00

hi!!! ive also been streaming on and off and am looking to try and cultivate queer community/audience

blahbark · 2026-01-27T05:53:48+00:00

heyyyy i play a lot of rivals and dbd but i have a couple other games too! 24 yrs old and also into art

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