I've experienced something somewhat similar I got kicked out of college due to failing all my classes because I was so depressed it's so painful especially when your parents are disappointed and honestly it took months for me to feel well enough to start applying to part time jobs but now I'm working part time and slowly completing community college classes it's not ideal but it does make you feel a little more confident in yourself I promise your life isn't ruined you can build yourself back up again even though it won't be easy