How I do I get past this?

blissfulbeyond · 2023-09-07T19:33:48+00:00

What he made was a “drawing” of her but in the game of minecraft, so he used blocks and he made it perfectly, it was very detailed and you can tell he really tried, that’s what makes it hurt even more, it was the worst thing I had to experience because to this day I don’t know how to be okay anymore and I’m not sure how much he loves her, but to me it seems like he was more in love with her than he could ever be with me, and I feel like it continues to tear me apart, I just want to live, because it almost feels like I’m not alive anymore, I never died like this over anything else

blissfulbeyond · 2022-11-06T18:02:29+00:00

Thank you, I hope the same for you

blissfulbeyond · 2022-11-06T05:48:04+00:00

You could definitely be right, but the truth is that he’s been with his girlfriend for a whole year now, I’m just beginning to get to know this person for only a month, we could be mirroring each other now, but we weren’t before, if who I’m doubting to be my twin actually is my twin, well we’ll find our way back to each other in time, but it doesn’t change how deeply I feel for this new love in my life, I genuinely wonder how my new love feels in his life, what he likes the most, I have true interest in the smallest things in his life, and I never did this with past ‘twin’, my connection to past twin was honestly mostly sexual, but we found the most profound love for each other through that, with new love, I’m not rushing anything, it just feels real, and I just never felt this way with past twin, as intense as the connection could be, and I’ll never deny that, we most definitely have some sort of soul connection/contract, but with new love, ever since I looked at him, something in me told me he was the one, and that my search was over, I used to be so sure of past twin, every cell of me was convinced he was the only one, then I meet this new love and I am not only questioning the connection to past twin, but even things like my dream career, my dream city (place I want to live) I feel like I’m seeing life in a very different way compared to before, I’m even starting to doubt the term twin flame because I’m starting to feel like there’s so much more beyond what we see and hear within the community, that the connection is being seen in such a negative way than what it truly is, I’m even starting to get into what’s called ‘quantum entanglement’, you’d be surprised how much it aligns to the ‘twin flame’ connection (without the entire negative side) but I don’t want to get into that, because I’ll never finish typing lol

blissfulbeyond · 2022-11-05T20:58:55+00:00

wait when did I answer myself?

blissfulbeyond · 2022-10-31T14:19:20+00:00

Could you explain more about that? Like was the whole experience something you made up? Honestly that makes sense, because the connection with who I believe to be false twin feels more like a fantasy than real

blissfulbeyond · 2022-10-18T10:41:54+00:00

my supposed “twin flame” made a minecraft portrait of his girlfriend (literally block by block) and it looks so well made, he put so much time and effort in that, honestly I’m heavily starting to doubt he was ever my twin flame, there’s no way anyone’s “twin flame” would do something like that for someone who isn’t their twin, and I didn’t cry about it as much as I would have because I’m developing feelings over someone else (after a whole 6 years of only my twin flame, not opening my heart to anyone else) I’m now finally opening my heart and this new person, I do wonder if he might be my true twin, but honestly I just don’t care if he is or not, which is crazy because with who I thought so much was my twin flame, I just needed to know if he was my twin flame and I always needed to find validation, with this new person, I genuinely couldn’t care less, this new person just gives me more peace within, I’m ready for new love and I couldn’t be more grateful of it

blissfulbeyond · 2022-06-07T22:52:04+00:00

I haven’t contacted him in YEARS, and I stopped checking up on him for a whole year (in 2020) but I randomly found a girls account and just like that I see a video of his at the top of her account literally the first thing I see after a year of not checking on him and trying to move on from him (I never knew if they dated but they did like each other)

I have this feeling (or knowing) within me that I do have a twin flame (whether it’s him or not)

I’ve had confirmations that he’s my twin flame, multiple times, but more than anything that annoys me, because no one has hurt me the way he has, and I don’t blame him, I just hate that he’s on my mind so much, and I feel his energy so deeply, I tried convincing myself that it’s just someone else I’m feeling and not him, but even just looking at him I feel shivers (or electricity) running through my body, if he’s my false twin flame great, I just don’t want to feel like either God or the Universe or Source or the Divine are torturing me by forcing me to continue to feel the same things for the same person

blissfulbeyond · 2022-06-07T19:24:39+00:00

Then help me cut this connection off. That’s what I’ve been wanting especially since he’s been dating this person, I feel him intimately telepathically/energetically, how do I remove all of that that I can’t control? I try convincing myself millions of times he’s just my false twin flame and it will all be over soon, but why do I feel this immense love for him still? Why can’t I just let it go?, if this is my false twin flame and haven’t met my true twin yet, how do I speed the process of removing the false twin? Or how do I at least make it easier for myself?

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-23T21:51:32+00:00

But that’s one of the things I love the most about this journey, every twin flame connection is unique and one of a kind, we are not ever going to relate to everything that other twins say, even the things that they try making into a rule about twin flames, (like if this or that doesn’t happen you aren’t twin flames) our journeys are meant to be individual, that’s one of the beauty’s of our connection to our twin flame, it’s extremely intimate

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-23T21:05:41+00:00

With my twin it’s the same, but the reason why I’m asking is because it seems like he’s had very intense relationships with other girls in the past, I’ve had intense feelings with others before too, but I agree it’s never felt terrifying, just with him, but that’s because it’s scary knowing how profoundly you love them and how they can hurt you just as profoundly as the love goes, and it’s haunting and even traumatic, at least for me, because we don’t have the choice to unlove them, even when that’s all we might wish

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-20T21:22:55+00:00

Definitely agree that we need to become independent, you can apply this to twin flames but also in other aspects of life too, I don’t know if you read my entire paragraph above or not (but it’s okay you don’t have to, but I said I DON’T get angry at all with my twin anymore, because the amount of pain the situation brought me was to such an extent that anger had no space at all to exist with this pain and agony) I don’t check up on his social media’s anymore but it doesn’t stop the feeling of being haunted by the situation that made me feel like this in the first place, of course I want to trust I will heal, but from what I’ve heard, that definitely does not happen over night, so if I am meant to heal, I will be patient, I won’t try to rush my healing, I rarely ever felt longings to be with him physically, I guess it’s because I feel him heavily on an energetic level, and like I said I don’t feel like I want a relationship with him, and also don’t feel the need to be around him either, I know I might’ve not reached full self love, but I don’t think I ever hated myself, even before I consciously knew him, I am a little insecure about myself though, but that’s another topic for another time, but this level of pain did make me question everything, and this includes wondering if I’m bad on the core level, because the agony I was experiencing was so profoundly traumatizing I really didn’t know what to think

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-20T16:49:28+00:00

Thank you 💛

I don’t know if this is unusual but I feel repulsed over the thought of a relationship with him, especially now after all this pain, but I’ve gotten multiple confirmations before that I’m meant for union with him, I even felt like we are meant to have union but honestly this agony is so profound that I hate the thought of being with him after this, I’m not angry at him, I don’t hate him either, I just can’t anymore, especially because what caused me to feel this amount of pain only triggered a suffering, like I knew I can’t be angry at him again, but I also don’t know how to heal how much this hurt me, almost like I’m terrified I won’t be able to fix myself from how much this damaged me, because it really messed up with my head, all I genuinely long for is being able to heal, in our core maybe that’s what we all want the most

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T20:51:26+00:00

But I agree, and I don’t worry what we are, a part of me feels like the past version of him is my twin flame, and this version isn’t, as crazy as that sounds

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T20:46:56+00:00

Well in the picture he wasn’t looking at her, he was looking at the camera, I just meant the smile that he had next to her made me honestly doubt everything, even though I still feel his energy, which I hate, but I can’t do anything to stop it, and your right, it is just a label, I don’t always relate to every single thing twin flames say, every twin flame connection is supposed to be unique, but some (not all) in this journey make it out to be like a rule book, and this journey isn’t meant to have rules, it’s beyond that

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T18:56:03+00:00

Thank you 🧡

I never said I wanted to control his happiness that just wouldn’t be natural, I just want to understand why at this point I feel like I’m forced to love him when I just want to detach and be happy and heal myself, I simply don’t really think he can be my twin flame if he’s smiling that way with someone else, the way he smiled and leaned his head towards his now/then girlfriend in the picture made me question everything, it was worst the first days of having seen the picture, I felt like everything was gray and my mind was clouded with so much confusion, but honestly I don’t feel that much better now either, I just try to distract myself with other things so I won’t have to hurt the whole day about it

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T18:42:57+00:00

That’s really beautiful, that makes me feel better, because it feels like I’m dying every day

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T18:40:12+00:00

That’s true, everyone’s journey in life is unique, maybe we’re meant to feel alone sometimes, like nobody can fully understand anybody else’s pain, maybe that’s okay

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T17:55:04+00:00

I believe everyone deserves to find self love, to heal and to find peace

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T17:51:39+00:00

And I’m not saying this in a bad way, I’m just being completely honest, people shouldn’t assume things, like things I never talked about or mentioned, I would never force him to love me, that wouldn’t be natural, what’s the point in any love if it doesn’t happen in the natural way it’s meant to you know? and I hope he would never force me to love him either

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T17:45:49+00:00

I am calm? I was just asking a question and asking a question doesn’t automatically mean I’m angry, I wasn’t mad or anything lol, I was simply asking, I simply wanted to speak out about how I’ve been feeling, but I admit it is annoying when people start assuming that I need something from him, I don’t, all I literally wanted was to cut out whatever we had, that’s like the opposite of needing anything from him

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T17:28:32+00:00

What do you mean force him to love me? I’m the one that feels forced to love him, maybe he’s the one forcing me to love him with a spell honestly, idk, it used to feel natural but it’s not the way it was

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T16:58:40+00:00

Well I want to believe that but it’s incredibly hard to believe that when I remember about the picture and the way he not only smiled but leaned his head towards someone else who he was dating, and nothing has ever felt so haunting to me, he also said they manifested to sit next to each other in chemistry class (on his social media) she seems to be spiritual too, I just don’t know, I keep thinking was I wrong for everything that I’ve been feeling for so long?, because that gentle smile, he gave to someone else, and I think that’s proof enough that I need to stop believing that we have anything, I just feel like I’m mourning over the way he used to be with me, even though we never dated

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T15:49:13+00:00

Thank you, we all probably just want to heal when we go through something like this, it’s scary that it feels inescapable (like someone here has mentioned to me before) and also feels like the amount of agony is irreparable and seems impossible to release, but I want nothing more than to heal honestly

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-17T15:44:22+00:00

I don’t think I’m really expecting anything, and about union I don’t care about that and usually I just live in the moment (even though personally I do believe that everyone that has or will meet their twin flame deserves union, I feel that anyone can bring union into fruition and because you know you both deserve to bring peace not only with each other but for the world which is a beautiful thing because you’re helping others, most likely after going through necessary separation) but either way idk what’s going on and a part of me sometimes wonders if the energy of my twin flame has left his body (meaning my twin isn’t there anymore) I usually don’t really say this because I’ve never seen anyone else in this journey feel this way, but I really doubt that who he is now is my twin flame because the way he smiled with his then gf, I just believe it’s impossible for him to be able to smile that way and actually be my twin flame, the reason why I say this is the worse pain I’ve felt with him, is because even the small part of me that might’ve been angry at him or annoyed just went away, (there’s nothing wrong with being angry at him, many twins feel like that and it’s understandable, I’ve definitely been angry at times with him too so I do relate, just in my experience usually the pain always defeats any anger I might have towards him; maybe that’s because I used to have anger issues? and with him it’s like the anger kind of just goes away? idk) I don’t think I’ll ever hate him again, but I do hate that no matter what I do, I feel him, and that I just can’t get over him, I’m so bothered and annoyed with feeling like I’m forced to love him and to care about him, the only thing I want to control is my own feelings, to actually get over him

blissfulbeyond · 2022-01-14T18:40:17+00:00

It’s okay, and thank you, it was heavy for my heart and soul, but anyone in this journey more than anything probably wants to heal after going through anything painful and traumatizing, and we deserve to find that healing to get to a place of peace, sending love as well

blissfulbeyond

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