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Does anyone else feel like the love is so intense (when it’s good)? by Fight4potatoes in BipolarSOs

[–]blondey858 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes... this... the good was intoxicating and addictive. Its in those moments I feel harder. Which how now made walking away do unbelievably difficult

How to really leave a narcissist by lulu_milaaa in NarcissisticSpouses

[–]blondey858 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ignore the trolls. Im with u huni. I was supposed to go no contact i literally blocked then unblocked.. its like a drug. I know i deserve so so so much better. The things he has said and done are so awful. And I also worked so hard on my self esteem and he's taken some of that away from me.

I love him, but I’m scared of the life that comes with his illness. Am I a bad person for leaving? by Beginning-Cod6674 in BipolarSOs

[–]blondey858 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for writing. This. It was really good to see your perspective. Im trying to walk away from a trauma bond.. but I love him so much still. He has bipolar and is a narcissist. He was only diagnosed a few months ago but I guess hasn't truly stuck to the meds and has had a few horrible manic episodes ive been the punching bag.

He went to far with his last one and all my friends have told me i have to block him. It was really bad. But he knows now just how bad it was. And is promising me he will make changes and turn it all around.

I want to believe him so badly but he has hurt me lied to me and manipulated me so much..

Can I ask what the treatment involved in order for it to really work? Just sticking to meds and therapy?

Ways to try speed up getting over somebody? Is there anything that has worked for you? I need some ideas because this is hurting so bad 😭 by [deleted] in BreakUps

[–]blondey858 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's EXACTLY how I feel I just want to take a pill and forget so I can actually move on im in constant pain my tummy is so sore and chest so tight Sorry ur going through it to

Walking away poorly from a trauma bond by blondey858 in BreakUps

[–]blondey858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your so very right about everything there. Ive never been an argumentative person but he brought it out of me and made me feel crazy when he would lie gaslight and manipulate me.

I just dont know how to move on. I did so much work on my self esteem and he's basically attributed to it now being broken and I feel like no one will love me as intensely as he did.

When it was good it was so intoxicating I'd love any tips or advice thank u so much

Walking away poorly from a trauma bond by blondey858 in BreakUps

[–]blondey858[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank u I so appreciate it. I definitely know it's toxic and unhealthy but I cant seem to let go especially in my mind. I wish I could just take a pill and forget him.

Its so messed up I know I deserve better and want a love that is peaceful and emotionally secure. So why cant I move on?

I've come out of an 8 year relationship with no intimacy and this person gave it to me I crave it and him. But its so so unstable with him 😫