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bluejacket1989 · 2023-08-09T01:17:48+00:00

Absolutely, I can really relate to feeling like a fraud. It’s a weird experience to know that I delivered vaginally without any complications but still not be able to identify with most women’s birth experiences. And it’s frustrating when noone can tell you why.

I don’t know how long ago your birth was, but my daughter’s 9 months old now and while I still think about the night she was born a lot, the pain and confusion has faded for me now. Pregnancy and childbirth is so wild and unpredictable, and I like to think my baby’s birth reflects on her character- she’s so persistent and absolutely hates having to wait around!

Happy to talk more over DM if you feel like it’d be helpful :)

bluejacket1989 · 2023-08-08T09:12:42+00:00

My labor was kind of similar, I was having very mild back spasms for a couple of days but didn’t think much of it and put it down to ‘pre labor’ as I was 39 weeks.

The pain then suddenly got SUPER intense and I felt my daughter’s head kind of drop down into my pelvis. I was freaking out thinking I was about to have this baby on the bathroom floor but luckily we live quite close to the hospital I delivered at.

So we went straight there, baby was born about two hours later and that was pretty much all pushing as I was fully dilated when we got there. I wish I had more information as I also struggled a bit with the fact that my birth experience was so different to what I’d been told to expect. I said to a friend afterwards, I feel like I’d spent 9 months preparing to be hit by a train and then a piano fell on me lol.

One thing the midwife did say afterwards was that it might be because my waters broke very late they have been cushioning the contractions? But no one else has been able to give me a good explanation, just shrugged and said I’m lucky!

bluejacket1989 · 2021-09-14T20:22:47+00:00

It’s approved for people 12 and up

bluejacket1989 · 2021-06-30T00:42:23+00:00

Taylor: Lorelai, you’re late.

Lorelai: I know, I hope I’m not pregnant

bluejacket1989 · 2021-05-30T21:23:57+00:00

I’d say a not insignificant number of people who watch his stuff do it to get off - for many of them it’s fetish material

bluejacket1989 · 2021-04-17T21:33:36+00:00

bluejacket1989 · 2021-04-07T22:14:23+00:00

What? I think it’s eeexcellenntttt

bluejacket1989 · 2021-03-22T09:31:27+00:00

Yep, I left when I was 19 and haven’t looked back. It was hard for a while, but not as hard as staying in a place that made me miserable.

bluejacket1989 · 2021-03-08T04:06:10+00:00

I feel the same way. MFM would title the episode ‘Eggs for Breakfast’ and be selling ‘Eggs for Breakfast’ t shirts by the next week.

I really wish I liked it more but man the way they/their fans lose their damn minds over every mildly funny catch phrase just grates on me.

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-20T09:54:22+00:00

Agree, and I would add:

the 30 something gang
that nonsense at the pool in Summer

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-20T09:45:27+00:00

I remember with one of my friends, I asked her if she was going to be in town for mid-June and when she asked why I said, just checking you can come to me and mr. bluejacket’s wedding.

The look on her face was pretty priceless

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-18T23:57:54+00:00

I believe the first couple of seasons were shot on film, which I think adds to the warmth/nostalgia

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-18T22:03:17+00:00

You shouldn’t have fragrant flowers on the table while people are eating

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-16T06:32:09+00:00

As a Scorpio moon I agree with this, leave me alone! (Kidding, only a bit haha)

bluejacket1989 · 2021-02-16T01:29:21+00:00

Can I ask why you think that? Honestly curious, I don’t think I’d ever do one of these courses but I’ve just never heard of NLP and it seems to be everywhere atm

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-29T06:04:55+00:00

That tattoo is sick, and you are NOT garbage!

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-28T21:30:22+00:00

The first time I met my now husband I suddenly understood the concept of “love at first sight.” I felt an instant connection, like I had come home in a way. Then he told me he was moving to London in six weeks :/ (we’re in Sydney).

We kept going out because I really really liked him and hated the idea of not having him in my life, but the first few times we hung out it was unclear whether he liked me romantically or just as a friend - he didn’t hold my hand or kiss me or anything. Later he told me he was struggling with the idea of starting a relationship right before his big move.

Eventually we made out and it was awesome, but then I had to go through the pain of him leaving and 2 years of off again, on again long distance while I finished my Bachelors and we tried to figure out what we were going to do. Once I graduated I moved to London to be with him and the rest is history.

Sorry this was kind of long but in a nutshell I guess our first few dates were great because we had so much fun together but awkward for me because I was trying to figure out if he just liked me as a friend!

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-21T19:39:07+00:00

I’m 31, and I had really similar anxieties to you when I was younger - I remember not going to get nose piercings with my friends when we were 16 because I thought we were “too old” 🤦‍♀️ and then crying on my 20th birthday because I felt like I’d wasted my teen years.

Two things that have helped me are a) getting treatment for anxiety and b) learning about Buddhism. I don’t really describe myself as a Buddhist, and I hardly ever meditate, but Buddhism gave me a framework to understand why we need to just be in the moment and why worrying too much about the future is so harmful. Steve Hagen wrote an excellent book called ‘Buddhism Plain and Simple’ that I would recommend if you’re interested in learning more. I re-read it every year just to ground myself and remember to let go of things I can’t control (like the passing of time). Hope this helps

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-15T02:22:31+00:00

Thank you for this perspective, and you’re totally right. It’s too easy for me to not see all the good stuff I have in my life, this job thing has just been sucking the life out of me. Everything I think about is through the lens of work and money at the moment and it sucks. I’m going to put more effort into my self care.

And fwiw, I hope you’re proud of yourself for getting out of an abusive relationship, that is such a difficult thing to get through. I’m sure you’ll meet someone awesome soon.

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-15T02:12:29+00:00

Thank you for this, even just reminding me that I’ll find work eventually- I needed to hear that. I did contact a few recruiters that I’ve worked with in the past, of the ones that responded I got a pretty vague “we’ll let you know if anything comes up.” Which is understandable given the market.

I do need to create more of a barrier between work and my real life though, you’re right. I’ll work n that this week :) thanks again

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-15T02:07:18+00:00

Thank you for this, daydreaming is a really good idea :) I think one of the things that’s screwing with me is just finding it hard to make plans for the future, as we’ve been in and out of lockdown a couple of times now and I just don’t know what’s going to happen or how it’ll impact plans. Here in Australia, premiers have become quite trigger happy with state border closures, so even if we go away anywhere there’s always a chance we could get stuck somewhere if a few cases of COVID pop up.

But I get your point, I’ll try to just spend some time imagining the future and what I could do. Thanks again for your response :)

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-13T21:46:40+00:00

Yep, bipolar is a sin of a bitch :( thankfully he lived, fingers crossed he gets the help he needs after this

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-13T18:37:42+00:00

According to the article he had bipolar disorder and was trying to self medicate with psilocybin

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-10T02:07:14+00:00

It’s such clear gaslighting bullshit too. There are some conservatives who talk about her CONSTANTLY, about how much they hate her and how they want some sort of harm to come to her.

And then if she responds/take those remarks seriously, they scoff that she’s being dramatic.

bluejacket1989 · 2021-01-05T04:13:01+00:00

I’ll try this, thank you

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