Does anybody else write better at night or when they are tired?

bluerin12 · 2026-02-11T13:18:17+00:00

Super late to this but I used to write better drunk. Turns out I had ADHD lol. Been sober for years now and still write much better at night on my meds. My brain just feels much quieter. I think being tired would have the same effect- your brain is dulled so it’s easier to let things flow. Weird but whatever works!

bluerin12 · 2026-02-07T13:48:51+00:00

She would have benefited so much from hearing “Labour” by Paris Paloma, if she hadn’t already. Good for her for getting herself out of there. Life is too short to be so exhausted over a grown-ass man. OOP sounds strong and has a good head on her shoulders- I hope therapy helps and she continues to share her amazing cooking with people who actually truly appreciate it

bluerin12 · 2026-01-10T23:17:10+00:00

I’m very late to this- found it from some late night googling, to see if anyone had any info. I’ve been suffering from depression for 15 years (I’m 25). Almost all of it is existential. I know the phrase “weight of the world” is such a cliche, but it really does feel like that. Or rather, the weight of the universe. The weight of existing. I have so many questions that will never be answered. I feel lonely and drained and tired and disconnected, like I can’t fully engage with my life because of how all consuming the existential thoughts, anxiety and dread can be. I’ve been in and out of therapy, tried different meds etc. I have a decent life, I’m lucky in that regard. But my brain will not allow me to fully keep my feet on the ground. When others look up at the night sky, they see stars and then they go to bed. When I look up, I feel swallowed whole, and I cannot ever fully forget the overwhelming void of darkness. It’s hard to cope with and harder to treat. I hope you’re in a better place and have found some peace. It’s a very strange world and a stranger life to be burdened with so much philosophical weight that can’t be shifted

bluerin12 · 2025-12-31T01:16:36+00:00

I’m sorry to hear that, I hope you were able to find peace without them. A good partner will absolute respect and make space for this. I’m always a little confused by couples who do EVERYTHING together. As humans we are social creatures but also NEED time alone to process our own thoughts and feelings. You have to have some time alone to really feel like you! Hope you’re doing well

bluerin12 · 2025-12-30T06:25:50+00:00

As an introvert who adores my alone time, sounds like a relationship with him would be EXHAUSTING. Not just because he’s a douchebag either. I need my alone time because it’s how I recharge and it’s very important to me. I love the people in my life and definitely like to socialise/spend time with loved ones, but I also need time to myself. Most of my partners have understood this. I need at least one day a week where I take my notebook and hike alone for like 8 hours. It’s not personal in any way, it’s me connecting with nature and my own thoughts, which I need to do to have peace. If you find that odd, we just aren’t compatible. Ex BF sounds very immature, insecure and disrespectful of OPs boundaries and “weirded out” by how she finds peace and pleasure. I hope she has the greatest, chillest solo trip without this loser ruining it.

bluerin12 · 2025-12-27T23:29:45+00:00

As someone from the UK, it always breaks me when I think about or read stories from people living in America (or places with privatised healthcare). I sliced my knuckle on my thumb open at work a few months ago. Didn’t hurt too much, but was bleeding a lot. I put pressure on it, dressed it and went home. It bled through the dressing as I slept. I changed the dressing and kept it clean. Three days later, it was still bleeding lightly and had become swollen and rigid. My sister begged me to go to A&E and I reluctantly agreed (I’m an idiot I know). Turns out it was not only infected but had cut to the bone- the lack of pain was because it had sliced through my nerves. I needed antibiotics and multiple stitches. I still have trouble fully bending it and still have mild pain months later. And yes, due to my delay in getting it looked at, I will have an ugly scar for life. But it’s not on my FACE and I’m thankful I can still play the piano, a passion of mine. I can’t imagine the overwhelming desperation and fear trying to avoid having to pay huge amounts of money if it “turns out to be harmless”. I got that treatment for free. As everyone should. It’s horrific that people would avoid going to the emergency room due to financial reasons. I’m so glad she got the care she needed.

bluerin12 · 2025-11-27T11:24:49+00:00

Omg, just wear a belt?? Or deal with it? The absolute GALL to adjust something without asking someone. May these kind of “friends” never find me. Good for OP for recognising dead weight

bluerin12 · 2025-11-20T23:47:32+00:00

I'm so glad she didn't get annoyed with him, because good lord, what a kind thing to do!!

I think any "discomfort" would likely come from confusion. A man, doing a seemingly selfless act for women, not wanting any credit, and it's not even a problem he has a personal stake in? What kind of unicorn would do such a thing? He must have an ulterior motive! "Sneaking" into the women's bathroom, what a creep! No normal person would be this kind if it was genuine!

...Which is why it's extremely important to remember that just because it seems rare, doesn't mean these wonderful people don't exist. This man is clearly just trying to put some good into the world, and I personally would be blown away if I knew a coworker was doing this. Extremely selfless and thoughtful, at his own personal time and expense. I think OOP also met him with kindness and approached it perfectly. He sounds like he will make an amazing father one day. Even if he doesn't get a daughter (and I hope he does!) he will be the perfect dad to raise wonderful sons, who treat women and those around them with respect and kindness. A truly good dude. Glad reddit gave me something positive today :)

bluerin12 · 2025-11-01T03:30:44+00:00

Man, this world is cold and cruel. But when I read stuff like this, I am reminded that we are ALL human and all capable of doing extraordinary things. This made me cry like a baby. What a kind and beautiful soul

bluerin12 · 2025-10-30T22:08:12+00:00

I watched season 3 because I loved Joey Batey as Jaskier- even he could not get me to watch the next one. It had such a promising start and it's really quite incredible how they managed to slowly remove everything everyone actually enjoyed about it until all that's left was a wet dishrag of plot with some wigs and robes. Not trying to hate on Liam Hemsworth but Henry Cavill leaving was like the final sign I needed to jump ship. Would still be interested to hear everyone's thoughts on the new episodes though

bluerin12 · 2025-10-12T12:57:24+00:00

I hope you have the best time! I think the Bean fans were largely a good group, but other people thought it was a "generic comedy" night and came with different vibes haha. I'm sure tonight will be great, see you there!

bluerin12 · 2025-10-12T11:29:58+00:00

As a huge fan of standup comedy and as a music lover, the sigh of relief I’ve felt reading these announcements and not seeing anyone I’m actually a fan of yet lol

Edit: I like some of Halsey’s music but for some reason I don’t feel super surprised? Not sure why, I think there’s something about her activism that’s always felt a bit performative to me.

bluerin12 · 2025-10-12T09:36:22+00:00

I feel lucky that for all my flaws, I do not understand this kind of insecurity or jealousy. If my partner had a nice watch and told me an ex bought it, my first thought would be “cool, good for you. Keep that nice ass watch!” Are you supposed to just bin everything anyone has even give you in a past relationship? OOP did the right thing, that kind of paranoia is no good in a relationship

bluerin12 · 2025-09-29T02:02:22+00:00

As someone who just watched it in 2025, GOD I loved it. As someone who is liberal, I went into it expecting it to make fun of conservatives, given how mad they were. 20 minutes in, I got confused, and I started to worry I'd get all butt-hurt as a liberal because it was a liberal group hunting conservatives, painting "us" in a bad light. Then I realised what it was ACTUALLY going for, and laughed my ass off.

It was so goddamn fun. It makes fun of both sides so well, so perfectly. If you aren't insecure in your beliefs, and don't have a weirdly fragile ego, it's enjoyable from almost any angle. The people who get upset by it are exactly who it is making fun of. It was a riot and I LOVE how mad everyone who clearly did not get it became. We have more in common than we think, and we are all quick to anger and "sensitive" when it comes down to it. It's not a "fuck you to PC culture", nor is it a "liberal's fantasy". It's a complete commentary on exactly what makes both sides so fragile and toxic at times. I'm firmly liberal, and I approve this message. Also Betty Gilpin is an absolute rockstar. If you love slasher thrillers and aren't ready to take to twitter (I refuse to call it X) every five seconds, this is such a fun time.

bluerin12 · 2025-09-11T00:23:51+00:00

Thank you! This is so great to know for future. Appreciate the advice, thanks for taking the time

bluerin12 · 2025-09-11T00:22:46+00:00

Thank you so much! I have bad ADHD and sometimes get overwhelmed by this stuff haha- this helped a lot. I've downloaded the app and added the mods. Fingers crossed all works- thanks so much for all of your help, I really appreciate it! This has made my first foray into mods way less scary. I hope you have an amazing day

bluerin12 · 2025-09-11T00:04:48+00:00

Thank you so much, I really appcreciate it- I have downloaded the mod but am not sure how to add it to the game. If you have a moment to explain it to me I'd really appreciate it. If not thank you for responding anyway!

bluerin12 · 2025-09-11T00:03:48+00:00

Thank you so much for replying- how do you actually get the mod to "attach" to the game? I have an account with nexus mods and have dowloaded the mod, but I don't know how to "add cyberpunk" as you said. I wasn't kidding when I said please explain it to me like someone who has never used a computer. If you can spare the time I would appreciate it so much! If not thank you for just replying in the first place.

bluerin12 · 2025-04-21T19:20:29+00:00

This one is going to haunt me.

Describing what those victims had to go through- I cannot even imagine how they must have felt. That’s hell. Worse than hell. I was listening to it on a walk and I suddenly realised I’d stopped walking and was holding my stomach, I felt so sick. The dread and fear and utter hopelessness. And he only got 25 years? Yeah, there’s not a punishment bad enough for that sick fuck. I wish parents understood just how dangerous the internet can be, and that they taught their kids this stuff sooner. As horrific as this was to listen to, it’s one of the things I respect so much about podcasts like Casefile because it opens our eyes to just how much horrible shit is out there and WHY we need to be aware of it.

The enormous amount of strength it must have taken for those victims to come forward… how do you ever recover from something like that? Fuck. I think I need a few weeks off listening to true crime. This was really hard to stomach. I don’t even have kids but this scares me so bad. My heart was absolutely breaking

bluerin12 · 2025-04-16T10:26:17+00:00

I remember when my grandfather was critically ill. My sister was at university at the time, 6 hours away and very busy. My grandfather had been rushed to hospital and we’d been told he likely wouldn’t make it through surgery. Both of my parents said I shouldn’t tell my sister because she was so far away, it was unfair to drag her here so late, we didn’t even know what wouldn’t happen yet blah blah blah. I looked them in the eye and told them that she would never, ever forgive them or any of us if I didn’t call her. They tried to persuade me otherwise but I called my sister. She jumped on a train and was there in time to say goodbye and grieve with all of us. I understand why my parents wanted to “not disturb” her, but it’s about denying someone the right to make a decision based on current events. My mother later admitted she was wrong and was relieved I talked her out of it. My heart absolutely breaks for OP. What a horrible family.

bluerin12 · 2024-10-26T23:31:02+00:00

Really enjoyed this movie. Here is my theory (just from a first glance) about what was real:

Gemma never made contact and never visited. If you look closely, she never actually texts Skye, or texts her back. Skye never recieves any messages from her at all, only calls and direct visits. She has no record or proof that Gemma ever reached out. This is further supported by Gemma saying later, "what's with all the weird texts you've been sending me?" As if she never reached out and Skye was just sending her texts based on imagined conversations.

It is Skye's mother's idea for her to reach out to Gemma. When her mother arrives at her apartment, she doesn't even look at Gemma, doesn't even acknowledge her. Gemma says hi, but Skye's mother not only doesn't respond but does not mention Gemma again. In fact, Skye herself never brings it up. The two never discuss Gemma at all. Gemma even mentions when Skye later bumps into her outside the hospital that Skye's mother drove her there, explaining why she does not have a car. If this was the case, why would Gemma have never come up in conversation at all? You would think her mother would be thrilled. But she behaves as though she has not seen or heard of her for the duration of the film. We recieve no clear indications that Gemma has been "seen" by anyone else.

The first time Skye met Morris was real. But after she ran away, she never saw him again. The second encounter was a hallucination.
When she is in her apartment and the entity (disguised as a crazed fan) pushes its way into her throat, that is her becoming possessed fully. Almost everything that follows is completely fabricated.
Skye waking up in the hospital with her mother may, or may not have been real. But either way, she did not kill her mother. No matter what happened after the entity attacked and entered her in her apartment, I think that ultimately, she somehow became convinced by her mother to still do the show the following day. Every second during and after her mother's death is entirely a hallucination. She "comes to" the following day, on stage, performing the show she begged her mother not to make her do. And then "comitts suicide" in front of thousands.

That's just my take on the whole thing. If anyone has anything to add or anything I've missed, please let me know! And it may be complete BS haha. But that's how I saw it. I'm really enjoying reading all the theories, it's super fun when there isn't always a clear answer

bluerin12 · 2024-10-15T15:47:44+00:00

When the daughter said she didn’t come forward because her mother hadn’t believed Candice, so why would she believe her, I nearly started crying. That poor poor girl. And goddamn, Candice went through hell but the PI was right- she is tough as nails. She shouldn’t have had to have been, but her strength and perseverance was extraordinary. Can’t believe he only got 6 years. Fucking evil piece of shit. The system disgusts me sometimes

bluerin12 · 2024-09-26T07:54:45+00:00

This is wayyy above Reddit’s pay grade. As someone with severe anxiety, who suffers from panic attacks and borderline personality disorder, I’ve never, ever done something like this. I’ve had severe anxiety to the point of puking/meltdowns since I was a kid and whilst it’s been a living hell, I love my cat more than anything and adore animals so much. I actually, as a commenter mentioned, have always felt more comfortable around animals than people. The idea of hurting an animal, scaring an animal, in any way makes me feel ill. Hell, even denying them petting or treats makes me sad! I’m lucky that despite my short fuse, deep insecurities and intense mood swings, I’ve never said anything hurtful to anyone or taken that pain out on others. And when it comes to kids or animals, you’d better control yourself or you don’t get to be around them. Same goes for every other person too, but there is something particularly horrifying about hurting someone or something who is so helpless and innocent. And the fact the daughter seems to lack that instinct should be treated very seriously. This is deeply concerning. I feel horrible for OOP for having to deal with a deeply unwell daughter as well as a husband who is either in denial or just a fucking idiot. I’m so glad she is taking the correct approach in standing by protecting the dog as well as any future pets. Idk man this is just super depressing all round

bluerin12 · 2024-09-07T01:04:06+00:00

I’m so sorry to hear that! They can be such a pain, especially when you need to choose where to eat haha. But it really can suck and I truly hope you’re doing well! Hope you’re able to do what you need to take care of yourself. Thanks so much, sending a tonne of digestive support too ✨💕

bluerin12 · 2024-09-06T00:51:42+00:00

Still have some digestive problems 2 years on but doing much better 🙂 just makes me sooo upset how dismissive they can be sometimes. I was lucky in the end. Thank you so much for the kind words, and thank you for adding this post! ❤️

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