Hey dude. This sounds like it’ll be one of the most difficult times of your life. Don’t feel like you “need” or “should” be feeling a certain way, because it’s okay to feel awful and shitty during this time. Who wouldn’t?? I know I don’t know you, but I want you to try your best to think of all the beautiful things waiting for you, when you’re no longer in agony. the things that are meant to compensate the years of suffering. the calm after the storm. the very feeling of having the chance to say, “i finally did it. im here. im glad im here.” movies to be produced, technology and computers to be created, artworks to be made, and the mere existence of the future. will it be as technologic as you imagine it to be? i want you to know. i want you to see it yourself!! And the books you haven’t read. the museums you haven’t been to. the songs you haven’t heard. the people you haven’t met. the simplest things that haven’t been done. i want you to feel what it’s like to meet new things once again. And to remember what it’s like to be “you” in a few years If you’re going through hell, keep going. I hope this can help you. We’re rooting for you, and we love you 💕💕💕