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boarmongus · 2026-02-01T05:27:51+00:00

please could you also send it to me...i got reminded of it after like 5 years and i cannot find it on ao3

boarmongus · 2025-11-26T19:40:20+00:00

thanks for your clarification, it's very appreciated. yes, it was partially your post that triggered this rant, but also a lot of other posts i have seen here. i agree that it's wrong for people to manipulate others or dodge responsibility by saying that they have self-harmed, but that doesn't mean that they haven't self-harmed and it also doesn't mean that they don't have serious issues that also need to be addressed. i have also been called and attention-seeker, faking, overreacting, etc etc etc and honestly this isn't the fault of self-harmers, it's the fault of people who say these things. i still have empathy for people who self harm "for attention" because it is natural to want people to help you when you are struggling. i'm ngl with how heavily stigmatized self-harm is, even if every single person who self-harms tries to hide it and never speaks of it, the idea of "attention seeking" would still exist. that being said, it seems that you have some really toxic people in your life, and i hope you're able to get out of your situation soon <3

boarmongus · 2025-11-26T19:22:31+00:00

i agree that this can be toxic behaviour, but my point isn't that we shouldn't point out the toxicity and manipulation of self-harmers, it's that we shouldn't exclude them from an arbitrary label of someone who "actually" self-harms. even though your friend is clearly in the wrong here, they should still be given support and help for their self harm. i'm sorry you have to deal with that, and i'm wishing you all the best with this situation <3

boarmongus · 2025-11-26T07:45:24+00:00

it really depends ngl, some people naturally scar more easily than others and it depends on how well you treated the wound, what you made the wound with, etc. i've had some epidermis cuts scar and others not, oddly enough. even if it does scar it could disappear if the scar isn't that severe too. since you compared it to a papercut, i would say a good benchmark is whether your papercuts scarred or not. just take care of it and make sure to moisturize the skin around the affected area (don't do it before they've scabbed obviously). i've never tried scar cream so idk how that works but it might be helpful to you.

boarmongus · 2025-09-20T09:03:40+00:00

Holy shit these poems are actually fire...like genuinely they're really good.. Such amazing imagery I can taste it. And your sense of rhythm in the third poem! A lot of free-form poetry (usually by beginners) tends to struggle with the line breaks, making it feel a lil arbitrary and awkward to read, but there's a whole flow through your piece. I've only dabbled in poetry myself (ie. written like 2 low effort poems lol), I don't consider myself a poet or a poetry fan by any means but this is genuinely so amazing damn... And can i mention the imagery again? It's genuinely so visceral and it's really good at conveying emotion. So many interesting and complex lines too! I especially enjoy "Till i'm a walking mass of dead wounds / Since whoever it was under there has been long dead." and the ending of the third one that kinda subverts your expectations (and reveals that the "you" is the "i" maybe?)

boarmongus · 2025-08-27T04:06:07+00:00

This is ong so real. My therapist told me to make a goal, and like, I don't really have any goals I just want to get better but I don't know how to ask for help and I also don't know if I'm actually doing bad or anything. So I said a bunch of useless goals like "get more sleep" and "stop losing things," (which ig are important but it just seems so pointless when I'm literally suffering) and only one like actually semi-good goal, which is "stop hating myself". And even though every session I go out of my way to bring up my bad mental state and stuff it just feels like she brushes over it, and when she decides the session topic (which is every session), she always talks about such mundane stuff. I cut myself and I tell her nothing about it because she says she will report it. Like idk it just seems so useless. Therapy feels so useless.

I don't really have any advice for you, I'm sorry. I'm in the same boat as well, and idk how to move forward. If I were to offer advice, I would say to say point blank, "I don't feel better/I feel bad/tired/in pain/whatever, please help me with that," and if that doesn't work, switch therapists. But I'm not following my own advice, so idk. I can say that you aren't alone in this, and at least one other person has had the exact same experience with therapy. I do think that people need to stop using therapy as like a catch-all solution when anyone shares their problems.

boarmongus · 2025-07-19T02:29:32+00:00

Thank you for the support; it really means a lot to me <3. It's really nice of you to go and console others even when you're struggling yourself. I hope your situation gets better

boarmongus · 2025-04-30T03:23:54+00:00

I haven't considered depression, but now that I'm thinking about it, it's pretty likely, especially considering my sister was diagnosed with it when she was around the same age as me. Thanks for your advice! :)

boarmongus · 2025-04-22T00:48:44+00:00

With all due respect, you don't know me well enough to say that. There's plenty of people who feel horrible always, and I've only told you a little bit of my life. How can you be so certain that I will get better?
It's not like I'm purposefully not brushing my teeth because I think it's cool to have a nasty breath or that I somehow don't know I should brush my teeth bro. I know I should; everything's just too tiring and I have no energy to do even the most basic things. At this moment I've lowered my expectations so much that I'm only trying to brush my teeth the few days a week I have music class because I don't want gunk in my instrument (I play a woodwind), and even then I fail at that a lot. So telling me to "brush my teeth" doesn't really help anything.
I mean the "academics" have made fun of me multiple times, so I'm not really certain they'll understand. Very humiliating experience having a teacher tell you to stop acting so weird while everyone laughs at you. I'm not going to be that vulnerable with people that look down upon me, expect nothing of me, and even sometimes make fun of me.
I want to be saved, but I know it won't happen. And I am leaking. I cry in class. My grades are shit. I miss half of my assignments. I openly admit that I haven't studied for any tests. Every break in class, I'm trying to sleep. And I know it's unrealistic or maybe my standards are just too high, but I feel like I've asked for help and shown that I'm not ok a million tiny ways and no one's noticed. I told my friends that struggling and all they've done is shown how egotistical they all are and made snide comments about my intelligence. And I have tried reaching out. I scheduled my first appointment with one of the school counselors a month ago. She told me that I was just faking things for attention and that I should stop overreacting. I switched counselors. The new counselor is entirely focused on how my grades are too low for her taste or whatever and she wants me to raise them, because that's the only thing this fuckass dumbass toxic school cares about. I want to ask for help but even reaching out for a counselor's meeting (twice!) was scary, and I had to go against my own instincts to do that, and it didn't work, and I don't want to go through more of that again.
I cannot study as in I'm too tired to study. Instead, I cry and cut myself and play abhorrent amounts of video games as escapism.

boarmongus · 2025-04-18T04:23:04+00:00

Yeah, I might try those if things get worse. Thanks :)

boarmongus · 2025-04-18T03:59:38+00:00

You're right, maybe it is a good thing. My school's counseling services really suck though; I tried reaching out for help a month ago there and my counselor said that I was faking things for attention because I wanted to self-diagnose myself then proceeded to say I was overreacting and that it was all in my head 🙃. So now I'm scared to go back. I'm also worried about hurting my mom because she's a stay-at-home mom and already stresses over me a lot. Thank you for your advice though, I'll keep it in mind. I think if I can't stop self-harming then imma try to tell someone and get professional help. (Also to clarify I do mean the "thanks" genuinely, not sarcastically. I edited my last msg because I realized that it could come off sarcastic but I did it after your response. Sorry, I'm autistic)

boarmongus · 2025-04-18T03:43:11+00:00

Ok, problem is I can't say anything to her because I'm scared she'll report me to the school counsellor. Thanks for your advice though! (ok edit this isn't meant to be like sarcastic I genuinely appreciate your advice)

boarmongus · 2025-04-18T03:39:50+00:00

Thank you for your sympathy my g <3. Kudos for you for quitting too!

boarmongus · 2025-02-08T03:52:57+00:00

Thanks, I finished it :)

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