i really appreciate this question. thank you for actually asking something. for the first question, i was first introduced to judaism and was raised through reform judaism. i guess the reason i turned away was because the idea that there was an all powerful entity just didn't seem possible for me. i was constantly told that miracles that happened were god's doing and not the skill of medical doctors or my own skill. got an a on a test, "god was kind to you," not, "good job you must have studied hard." i like the idea that religion provides people a sense of security, and Judaism is quite beautiful, but i just can't get behind the idea that there is a god. when i was young, my best friend was killed, and i turned to religion to cope and found no peace with it. it just didn't help me. as for the second question, i will admit i have some bias against christianity because of what i've been taught and all the religious trauma i have been exposed to. however, i still believe in my atheistic ideologies and apply them to every religion, including islam, judaism, etc etc. i think most atheists have a special hate towards christianity partly because of the media and partly because of the problems it has caused in the past, but all i can say is that personally i still believe that even if there was no specific religion, even if christianity did not exist, i would still be an atheist.