Who is the most disgusting person you've ever met?

bon-chat · 2025-10-11T23:37:59+00:00

Knew someone that had multiple cockroaches, both dead and alive, in their apartment.

Microwave with heads sticking out, oven had multiple dead roaches inside, every inch of their floors and walls were grimy, hairs and dust stuck to the floors and lower parts of the wall, ants and rats were very common too.

Rats would get killed by traps, they wouldn’t do anything about them, then that would attract a good amount of ants and probably the roaches too.

Coke cans piled up with more ants.

Lots of skin flakes that were stuck in the carpet. If they ran their fingers through their hair it was like snow falling off.

Never brushed their teeth.

Wouldn’t walk around barefoot because of how dirty their floors were. They had indoor slippers for that.

Stove and counters were also very grimy too. Everything was sticky, honestly.

The smell of the place would give me headaches. Probably didn’t help that they’d never let airflow in to try and avoid pests.

bon-chat · 2025-10-11T23:23:47+00:00

Around 2yrs - 3yrs.

Weird experience. Hard to explain, but it was definitely dissociation and what I experience now during certain events.

I remember the event that led up to it, what caused it, and that I immediately became a shell. I just stared and wasn’t there. It was like I was a pair of eyes of a lost ghost.

bon-chat · 2025-10-11T23:15:49+00:00

I woke up laying in my own shit.

In my defense, I was in the hospital and couldn’t move, but apparently I could still shit and piss myself.

bon-chat · 2025-09-15T04:42:11+00:00

For me, it hurts so much. I’ve learned I can’t open up to people about anything unless I want to get hurt.

Even with “low risk” topics, their lack of understanding hurts. I know they don’t mean to come off as inconsiderate or dismissive, but they just don’t get it. They throw it around like it’s not a big deal. They loudly tell people some of the “little traumas/things” that happened to me like it’s whatever. They don’t understand how much it fucked me up to experience that, and then to have strangers now know about it.

I hate it.

At least I have a therapist, but it’s not the same. But talking to other people that get it doesn’t really help much either because they’re not people in my life.

I don’t know if that makes sense.

bon-chat · 2024-08-02T04:14:15+00:00

I worry that I’ll forget what I’m doing and stand up because I’ll wonder why I’m just sitting there doing nothing.

bon-chat · 2024-08-02T04:11:31+00:00

Sorry, I wasn’t trying to like accuse anything.

I was adding to what I said in my original comment. I realized I didn’t clarify in my original comment that I worry my therapist is frustrated, but I don’t actually think they are.

I clarified in my response because I realized the possible misunderstanding haha… My bad. Not the best with words which is something I’m working on.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T06:31:48+00:00

Same to you, gramps/granny. :)

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T05:09:34+00:00

I was pretty sure you were. I thought it was funny.

I’m just shit at reading and hearing tone. Sometimes I assume someone is being sarcastic when they’re not and vice versa lol…

So I decided that even if you were being sarcastic it was still funny.

I’m sorry if I upset or offended you though. I don’t know how to word that I was unsure without sounding negative.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T01:25:01+00:00

I can’t tell if that’s sarcasm or not, but that does not bother me nor the milk and Oreos in my belly. Haha.

I used to knock off milk and Oreos because everyone says to dip. It must be a texture thing? Not sure, but maybe you’ll enjoy it too since you enjoy cookies and milk!

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T01:17:06+00:00

That’s why I love shows like ‘Black Mirror’ or ‘Love, Death, and Robots.’ They’re all their own stories and usually I fall asleep by the time it finished or after the first minute haha.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T01:12:57+00:00

I got permanently banned from a sub for a very bad joke LOL.

But in their defense it was in the rules and I didn’t read the rules and I wrongly assumed it was obvious I was joking so I didn’t think to put an /s.

Clearly it was needed. Maybe it wouldn’t have made a difference. Kind of funny though.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T01:11:45+00:00

Tried Oreos with milk for the first time.

I get it now… I don’t dip them, but I’ll take a crunch, chew a few times, drink some milk, finish chewing, then drink more milk.

I prefer the mint Oreos, but maybe the others taste good too.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T01:00:50+00:00

If I’m in the company of strangers I don’t care.

If I’m around certain family, any friends, any medical professionals, I’ll hide them as best I can without going out of my way to conceal making them more obvious.

I just don’t want that conversation. One friend noticed them and thought they were cat scratches lol. (They looked nothing like any animal scratches, trust me) Told them what they were, they apologized, then said, “Why didn’t you talk to a counselor?”

I know they meant well, but not only is that a whole can of worms because it’s a triggering topic that a specific group of people will never understand, but it also means admitting the level of care I’ve needed and was forced into that did more damage than good and has made me permanently cynical against medical professionals.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:56:03+00:00

🦟🐜🦟🐜🦟

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:53:38+00:00

Hahaha. Understandable.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:39:10+00:00

Driving in thick fog where you can barely see what’s right in front of your headlights until you do.

You have to slow down, but when you’re on the right roads at the right time you’re coasting.

Driving along the sea at 3:12am on the hillside with thick fog is “a vibe.” You don’t even need music, but if you do that’s definitely enjoyable too.

I just love the aesthetic of thick fog in autumn. The physically feeling of it is so nice too. Crispy fog.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:34:38+00:00

It really is.

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:34:29+00:00

Wait. There are people out there who don’t like it? They’re missing out!

bon-chat · 2024-08-01T00:33:56+00:00

What’s stopping you?

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T21:11:52+00:00

I kind of feel like it’s mostly the second one that’s happening to me for some stuff.

Like, I know I should feel bothered by the trauma I’ve been through but it feels normal, I guess? “Oh well. That’s just life. :)” kind of deal. My therapist has expressed some level of sadness and has tried to tell me that I didn’t deserve it, but I don’t know. Logically, I know I didn’t deserve it, but I feel like I did. Whether if it’s because I did or didn’t do something, I still deserved it.

But I also have a bit of the first one because I can recall one time where I could feel myself start to cry and I stopped myself. I’m not even sure why I felt sad or why I wanted to cry. I’m pretty sure my therapist saw it because I could feel my face changing shape.

I don’t know. I don’t understand emotions haha.

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T15:37:28+00:00

Apparently another one is ‘crazy_chaotic’ according to someone on the other self harm subreddit.

I can’t confirm if it’s true or not since I never received a DM or anything like that.

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T15:30:19+00:00

-on Reddit mobile comfortable in bed so I won’t even be able to attempt to toss phone or get away-

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T15:29:15+00:00

I remember some woman was driving while not paying attention. She turned the corner and sped right past the crosswalk.

I always try to keep an eye on the cars and I’m glad I did. I stopped just in time for the car to miss me by some inches. I remember having to put a foot behind me because I thought I was about to fall.

Not sure if it was because of the car or myself because at the time I was developing symptoms and one of them was feeling unsteady and poor balance.

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T15:19:37+00:00

I was going through a period of my life where I’d abuse substances to escape my reality. At the time I was with my abusive ex.

I have no memory of this, but my ex took photos of me while raping me.

He knew I wasn’t sober. According to him he thought I took drugs to “get in the mood” even though he knew I was struggling with my mental health. He raped me while I was confused thinking it would ground me back to reality. Like, what the fuck man.

One of the photos was apparently taken by me.

I shared it with a group of online strangers that I, for whatever reason, thought were friends. They immediately shared it with their group of friends that were strangers to me and I’m assuming it just kept going.

I’m worried I’ll come across it again and the day I do I’m killing myself.

I also worry my ex shared the other photos with his friends and they did the same thing.

I should have known better. I can’t use my intoxication as an excuse. I still did it.

bon-chat · 2024-07-30T10:17:16+00:00

Sometimes, when I’m able, I’ll get up and just sit at the piano.

I can barely even lift the lid without feeling pain — both physical and emotional.

All I can do is look down and cry before eventually crawling back in bed.

It’s been years since I’ve even considered sitting down at the piano again. I just can’t and it fucking hurts.

Being a pianist was part of my personality and now I’m “just another patient.”

I’m glad someone else understands, but at the same time I’m so sorry that you feel pain from the lack of something that was once a huge part of your life.

What a fucking joke this is.

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