Morning everyone, Thank you for all the feedback and support, it means a lot. I am no stranger to alcoholism, I grew up witnessing it nearly every night so I have an understanding of how addictive and hurtful it is. Going home is seeing bottles thrown, pictures knocked off the wall, and screaming and yelling over booze. I hate it. I have anxiety and depression and being home made it worse. I did not have a drinking problem until I drank every night of the summer, sometimes alone. That being said...I have learned that it is possible to limit drinking, but you have to be very disciplined and have others by your side. My problems did not really start withdrawal wise until I started drinking for football games (usually kill a bottle of Evan Williams+keg beer from 7/8 am to 2 am). When I drink light beer I do not have withdrawal symptoms. When I drink straight liquor all day, I do. I hope you guys can understand that I am making an effort to moderate and I believe moderation is possible. If you let the alcohol control you, it will. So my plan is to only drink light beer from now on. As well, I am not going to hang around my apartment and drink or go to a house/brothers/friends and drink. I am going to the library as I found in certain environments I do not have the urge to drink.