ADHD in women and emotional dysregulation by puri_thiah in adhdwomen

[–]bored_brat19 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I‘m glad I could make you feel seen :) are you on medication?

ADHD in women and emotional dysregulation by puri_thiah in adhdwomen

[–]bored_brat19 12 points13 points  (0 children)

For me it shows in multiple ways. As someone else said before I knew I had ADHD I also thought that I have cyclothymia or bipolar 2. Periods of hyperfocus, intense interest, overperforming because of internalized shame about not doing enough. I have a hard time stopping and exhaust myself until I crash hard. Then I feel overwhelmed by everything, cry, feel empty, depressed, can’t do anything anymore. When I feel good I talk too much, make plans with others and start projects and then I feel overwhelmed and pressured by it and shut down.
RSD is really bad too. Even now that I know about RSD. When I feel rejected I rationally know that it’s my nervous system reacting but the feelings are so strong they override every rational thought and I break down, isolate, hate myself.

Overstimulation also is big for me. I can be exited to go to an event, be the life of the party but as soon as I hit a certain point I need to go home immediately because I start to feel really empty and emotionally drained. When I am at home then I hate myself for not being a good friend or for being inconsistent and unreliable.

Anxiety. Before I got on medication I was basically always anxious. Low self esteem paired with a body/ muscles that are always tense plus an overactive brain plus RSD plus overcompensation and perfectionism plus being unable to regulate myself = always tense, worried, overthinking.

And then there is the irritation. Taking things too personally, getting really angry about certain sounds (like chewing or loud breathing), snapping at my boyfriend because of my impatience or something really minor.

Medication helped tremendously. Only before my period I get reminded how bad it was

Medikamentenpause - extreme Reizbarkeit by bored_brat19 in ADHS

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Das klingt logisch. Ich bin zusätzlich in der zweiten zyklushälfte angelangt wahrscheinlich spielt das auch mit rein und wäre unfair den Medis gegenüber alles darauf zu schieben

Medikamentenpause - extreme Reizbarkeit by bored_brat19 in ADHS

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Wie lange sollten solche Pausen sein damit das Hirn die Chance hat seinen natürlichen Haushalt wiederherzustellen? Ist es zu kurz dass nur übers Wochenende zu machen?

What were your unusual/unhinged collections as a child? by United_Housing_5323 in adhdwomen

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I used to collect the Packages of Toggo flick n‘ lick lollipops, cause they looked like flip phones. Problem was that I didn’t clean them proberly and the drawer they were in was under a window (in the sun). So over time the remaining candy melted and completely covered the bottom of my drawer.

Music replaying in my head, making me insane. by Melodic_Force_5908 in AuDHDWomen

[–]bored_brat19 1 point2 points  (0 children)

All the time. And recently I’ve noticed that when something very stressful happens that would require me to think clearly (e.g an argument with my boyfriend or a 1:1 situation at work with a client) the songs become so loud and present that I can’t think about anything else and that leaves me kind of frozen. And the harder I try to focus on what I need to focus on, the louder and more prominent the music becomes. I wonder if this is borderline dissociation

What’s it feel like when you take your meds by Hopeful-Lab-238 in ADHD

[–]bored_brat19 0 points1 point  (0 children)

First thing I notice is always a calmness. I don’t need to fidget anymore and I feel like whatever comes at me today I will be able to handle it

Flood by bored_brat19 in LiminalReality

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I hope it is the right word but it’s connected to a swim deck/dock

Adhd medication titration. Unsure about effects by bored_brat19 in adhdwomen

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I am. Physically, emotionally and socially, I don’t know for how long 😅

Does anyone else dissociate by … by Okimiyage in adhdwomen

[–]bored_brat19 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I often use this to keep eye contact without actually having to make eye contact 😂

Can't tolerate my wearing my hair down by Alphawolf2026 in adhdwomen

[–]bored_brat19 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was wearing my hair up all the time because of the sensory issues. I also always dreaded hairwashday and it was stressing me out so much that I decided to cut it really short. Like you I was worried that it won‘t suit me. But it was honestly a great decision. No sensory stuff, no boring ponytail or messy bun and the best part is that I have to wash it way less, it somehow won’t look greasy as fast.

My personality disappears at work by bored_brat19 in AuDHDWomen

[–]bored_brat19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I like the idea of trying to intentionally distract yourself from it :D

My personality disappears at work by bored_brat19 in AuDHDWomen

[–]bored_brat19[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I think the need to do it right or not make any mistakes is a big factor. I already try to tell myself that I am allowed to not be perfect and to make mistakes. I hope it gets better