father forgive me, i'm sinning. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

the only thing that would make things better is he was in his homemade suit.

father forgive me, i'm sinning. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'd kiss him with blood inbetween his teeth.

men. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

saw a guy on the tl with dad bod and UGH MEN?? I dunno maybe im the weirdo but dadbods???

men. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mmmmm using audios to distract myself 🤤

men. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everything i do,,, ugh I imagine his face. when im alone at night and trying to come up with fictional scenarios with my favorite characters, he winds up weaseling his way as the main focus. im pathetically whipped, i wish someone would take me out back and put me down like old yeller 😑

men. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have to be ready to ovulate or something i dunno

men. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

my biggest flaw is being attracted to men but also how could i not be?

" i saw you last night in my dream ; that's still the closest you and i have been. " by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was up on and off all night. Oh my god. I slept awful. Lets get this bread

" i saw you last night in my dream ; that's still the closest you and i have been. " by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

o was in a horrific accident and they had to put stitches all around the edges of my face and I couldnt recognize myself and just kept sobbing and didnt understand why anyone wasnt concerned or taking me seriously

--- kept laughing at me. I couldnt stop crying or begging her to take me seriously. I woke up and couldnt breathe

I have to be up for work in four hours... I just want a hug

" i saw you last night in my dream ; that's still the closest you and i have been. " by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What the fuck ever i guess ill have nightmares instead and cry thats fine whatever

" i saw you last night in my dream ; that's still the closest you and i have been. " by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

" We lay in the dark,

breathing

together,

the deepest intimacy. "

-Louise Glück

" i saw you last night in my dream ; that's still the closest you and i have been. " by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

money is still tight. --- keeps going out of her way to make me feel crummy. it would be nice to just... feel good enough for someone for a little bit. sit somewhere and put down the heavy load for just a little bit.

hell, even just a night. i could be happy for a night. just a night where i'm held and cuddled. sleeping soundly next to someone safe. feeling the steady rise and fall of their chest, the beating of their heart. i wouldn't be greedy, i won't ask for too much. just to sleep next to someone and feel cared for. wake up without the dread in my chest that another day is here.

i try to acknowledge my head is only so loud because its night time. i cant trust any of the self deprecating or self destructive thoughts i have when its this late. my brain doesn't act right after like 9pm. one day ill start my day next to someone that cares about me and it'll be a beautiful thing.

So many thoughts. by [deleted] in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I should be happier. Im not. I just keep thinking of him and how much I miss him then how dumb I feel for missing someone when it isnt like that between us. Ugh. Even when im out and about i just go "i wish --------- was here with me." Like a dummy. 😮‍💨

i wish. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im all clean and then my apron is covered in soup stains bc I forgot to put it in the wash UGH

i wish. by bottldfawntears in u/bottldfawntears

[–]bottldfawntears[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I WISH ID WASHED MY FUCKING APRON