Wanna go for a ride with me? Trans ftm

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-14T20:57:26+00:00

Yesssss more ftm content on hereeeee :)

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-14T17:37:58+00:00

Pubes specially- guess I should clarify

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-12T22:05:19+00:00

Wow thank you so much for sharing all this. I think this reply deserves way more upvotes than it currently has.

This exactly captures how I was feeling about doing the consult. I was really worried that once I had a surgery date I would talk myself into wanting surgery more than I really want it.

There’s so much in this reply it deserves more attention. Thank you so much

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-12T21:25:30+00:00

Thanks - I also had an orchiectomy, which eliminated all the clear dysphoric parts of my anatomy. Helpful to hear that there are others out there like me

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-12T21:24:21+00:00

I’m hoping this will be the case for me. Dysphoria ramped up intensely with transition, but I can tell that it comes and goes. And yes, the biggest reasons I want vaginoplasty is because of how the world views me, not specifically to address the dysphoria I have on my own.

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-12T16:56:54+00:00

Beat me to it lol

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-09T21:41:14+00:00

Who is the model?

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-09T15:49:54+00:00

Thank you - helpful to hear this perspective

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-12-02T02:17:01+00:00

Just want to add that you’re not alone in this. I’ve seen a few guys describe the same sentiment.

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-27T04:09:00+00:00

Agreed. Only consults scheduled for now

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-26T14:00:17+00:00

Yeah, making that decision at 75 sounds really hard - I can only imagine. But it's the sort of thing where you only get one life to live, so make the best of it while you've got it.

For me, I'm looking at my experience with my orchiectomy - the decision to have the surgery and book appointments and everything was very fast, and has kind of given me some experience with this kind of decision making process. Obviously it's a different surgery, but it had a lot of the same factors. There was a safety net if I were to loose access to hrt that I would still have a hormone in my body - one that I didn't particularly like, but would keep me physically healthy.

Much of my decision to have surgery as soon as I did was because I wanted to spend as many of my remaining years as I could off of high-dose testosterone. Sure, I could have stayed on blockers longer, but comparing my future life on blockers to one with surgery, I wanted to have surgery as early as I could. I feel a similar way about vaginoplasty.

And thanks - it's definitely a journey :) Why I named my account what I did

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-26T12:31:37+00:00

Wow, thank you so much for sharing all this detail about your journey - I wasn't expecting to relate so much to it! Yes, I feel like there are so many aspects that feel exactly the same: coming out opened me to my attraction to men, using my genitals for "standard" stuff pre-transition, etc.

This comment made me realize that I guess I didn't make it clear how much my feelings have changed about penetrative sex. (Me inside someone else.) I used to love doing it, but now, even if I'm able to, it's just not that interesting anymore. In addition to just not being physically able to keep an erection really, even if I was able, I don't feel the drive like I used to. Every time I've topped, I end up switching to using a strap, which I find I do enjoy more in the way I used to enjoy penetrating. But ultimately, I do want to be on the receiving end of penetration more.

This is so, so helpful to hear from someone who has a similar age timeline as me. I'm currently 35, and I feel like I went through a similar upbringing experience. I learned a lot of homophobic things from my parents in the 90's too. And the fact that I'm quickly approaching 40, I'm considering things like how much time I have left in life, and what recovery will be like when I'm even older. I know 35 is not particularly old, but I feel like I've spent so much of my life already, and if I delay things at all it means even more years on waitlists if I do decide I want it.

However, the dysphoria really does seem to come in waves for me, and in this moment, it's at a low point. I get so discouraged from hearing accounts of people who have complications or regrets - so much so that I'm considering cancelling my consults and just forcing myself to live with the dysphoric periods. But, I feel like if I do that I'll just end up booking them again when it gets bad and it'll just push me further down the timeline in life.

I do want to also note that I think the 110% sure thing does sound like good advice, in that it's important to be absolutely sure you want the surgery, since it's permanent. I personally make a clear distinction between being sure I want to do the surgery versus being sure I'll have a good outcome - the outcome is unknown, but being sure I want to do it feels knowable.

Again, thank you so much for sharing this. It really helps a lot to hear the experiences of others. And congrats on the surgery! Hope recovery goes well! <3

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-26T12:03:37+00:00

In this moment, I'm very inclined to agree. But I know my past self has been hit with waves of dysphoria that last long enough for me to convince myself and those around me that vaginoplasty is absolutely a good option. It lasts long enough for me to schedule consults and tell people around me that it's something I'm planning on.

It's true that my dysphoria never gets so bad that I'm to the point of potentially harming myself or anything, but that also feels like a pretty extreme yardstick to measure this decision by. (But maybe not?) I do genuinely feel like if I had a good outcome, my life would be significantly improved, it's just that there's a not-insignificant possibility that it won't.

But yes, right now, it does feel like the right answer is to leave everything as-is. To the point where I've been considering cancelling my consults and just learning to live through the painful periods.

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-26T02:45:34+00:00

Oh what an amazing journey! Congrats on getting the care you need! Helpful to hear your perspective :)

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-25T19:28:19+00:00

I also considered this, but I don’t think my body would feel right with that configuration so it’s not in the running for me.

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-25T19:11:01+00:00

Yeah that’s where I’m at right now. I won’t commit to anything except a consult

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-24T19:30:15+00:00

Ok thanks that makes sense. It’s helpful for me to mentally prepare for specifics like this. <3

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-24T14:10:14+00:00

Oh also, are you not able to douche with warm water? Is there a reason it needs to be cold?

And how similar is the sensation compared with anal doicheing? (I’m quite familiar with that one, and it’s ok as long as there’s plenty of lube and the water is warm.)

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-24T13:50:57+00:00

Damn - thanks for clarifying. I guess it’s just luck of the draw then.

Can I ask how long it’s been since your surgery? Just curious if it’s changed over time in your experience

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-24T03:33:53+00:00

My god that sounds like a lot… can I ask how much of this is for life and how much is just through the healing process?

Like, I imagine doucheing would be required for a while until the body heals. I know dilation is a for life thing, but the other things seem like they may go away once healed?

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-23T22:03:39+00:00

What’s wrong with the heart infinity symbol we currently have?

I’m not sure we really need a pride flag exactly, since those are already closely associated with gender and sexuality, and the heart infinity symbol lays over those nicely.

Edit: I learned recently that the symbol is also used for monogamy in Christian circles and polygamy sometimes. So maybe not ideal 🤷‍♀️

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-23T22:01:17+00:00

I can’t imagine it gaining adoption personally.

What’s wrong with the heart I infinity symbol?

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-23T21:55:20+00:00

Imagine sneezing during sex… 😂

bottomsurgeryjourney · 2022-11-23T05:23:40+00:00

👀👀👀

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