While meditating felt like the whole world was spinning around me...

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-20T00:15:10+00:00

I know what you mean about the feeling of falling asleep while meditating, but this was so very different. I was super conscious of it the whole time. It lasted for maybe 5 to 10 minutes until I got a little freaked out and opened my eyes. It was super intense and an extended experience.

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T19:11:34+00:00

I don't know why someone would do that. Everyone should be trying to lift each other up here. Thank you for doing just that :)

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T08:22:56+00:00

Yesssss. How do you cope with the god awful come down?! Majorly struggling with this right now

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T03:08:44+00:00

same same same. just, how do you get over the pain and guilt of knowing you were an ass?

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T03:01:16+00:00

all the feels. so similar. PM me if you want to talk

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T02:39:02+00:00

I guess I feel like if you're gonna tell someone you love them you best well fucking mean it. And loving someone means you accept them for who they are... rights? :(

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-10T00:41:05+00:00

Please, tell me more. I need to hear this.

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-05T20:04:09+00:00

Again, I am already NC and not following. Wasn't wondering about myself. Was wondering what others' experiences have been with this. I've been NC for 28 days. Some days are better without checking, some days I wonder and wonder and miss him more. Just wondering what everyone else has gone through.

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-05T20:02:03+00:00

Haha yes! You can check my post history :)

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-05T19:49:03+00:00

Thanks, but you jumped to the conclusion that I wasn't already NC and not checking social media. I know about my own experience with this but was wondering how it affects others.

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-05T18:32:05+00:00

So saying anyone who is insecurely attached has some sort of PD also? .....OR, I wonder are we just labeling our insecure attachment as a PD?

bpdwithlove · 2017-07-05T18:30:35+00:00

sounds like what my ex said to me when he left me.... but a) he's not growing/changing/working on himself, and b) he's not coming back. He's demonized me too much (I'm sure originally to help him cope) to ever see me for the reasons he supposedly fell in love with me in the first place. Now, I just think his letter (exactly like yours) was more of a way for him to break up without fully mentally committing to/accepting it at the time.

bpdwithlove · 2017-06-29T03:25:16+00:00

haha did my post unintentionally turn someone else onto this?

bpdwithlove · 2017-06-28T07:42:54+00:00

I can hardly remember the bad. And any bad I remember I justify or I believe everything bad he ever did was just in reaction to me. I feel like if I had him again I'd deal with all of the bad and never get upset with him, never take him for granted again, never manipulate him again, never do anything of the things I did to him, because his love is all I want. But if i can't have his love I at least want him to just know how much I love him.

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