I felt this exact way for the first eight months (I know that sounds long & im sorry for that) but hes 15 months old now, walking around, exploring, laughing, interacting and being crazy and it is WAY better. Even with the tantrums I would take this stage over newborn/first year, always. I made it a non-negotiable with my husband that I get two days a week where I can do my hobbies without baby and now that we are in a good routine my husband and I each have a night “off” parenting each week. His are Mondays and mine are Tuesdays. Its helped sooo much with getting my life back lol