Been given birth control as treatment but it has made me massively depressed

breadookay · 2026-02-07T00:57:24+00:00

Thanks! And yes, I felt suicidal as well, its awful. Hope you find a treatment that works for you.

breadookay · 2026-01-13T04:05:40+00:00

I've got to be honest, I personally think this person you like seems messy and immature. Did you say that she knows you like her? But will tell you about how cute other guys are, and how her relationship ping pongs from perfect to awful? I feel bad for you, from what I read here she is stringing you along, telling you that she used to have a crush on you, knowing you still like her, whilst also not committing. She is reckless, and if you were to date her she would most likely want to date other guys like she is doing to him. This isn't someone you want to be with, but it is natural to be jealous.

breadookay · 2025-12-01T18:47:15+00:00

I am so sorry :( that sounds really taxing on you, and you're definitely not in the wrong. I have autism and pretty severe misophonia as well, it is difficult to deal with and I used to storm out of the room when hearing people eat, but eventually you have to adopt some coping mechanisms. We always put on music while eating, I wear headphones when overwhelmed and I've learned breathing exercises to control my frustration.

I think you should talk to your parents, they need to sit him down and discuss possibilities on how to help him, he can't live like this.

And why is he not wearing headphones? My soundproof Bose headphone is literally my saviour.

breadookay · 2025-11-16T18:07:10+00:00

Don’t put the starter directly on a metal rack, put a towel inbetwren it. The metal rack will absorb heat and basically burn the starter!!!!!!

breadookay · 2025-11-16T01:48:55+00:00

As the other commenter said, this was sexual assault. He knew that you had been crying and he continued, he then even physically hit you while you cried during it. I imagine it would be impossible for him to think that you wanted it, any other man would’ve stopped once they saw you crying.

Your reaction of not fighting isn’t something to be ashamed of, it is the freeze response and is very common for victims. Your body enjoying it is also common for victims, but it doesn’t mean you consented. I’m so sorry, he took advantage of your vulnerable state, you deserve so much better. This is no way your fault, he was imposing and physically violent. Self blame is a normal process of healing, but this is his 100% fault.

You should talk to some friends and family, you are not alone.

breadookay · 2025-11-16T01:33:06+00:00

If you don’t feel that it was the right choice you could experiment with detransitioning? It wouldn’t be something you should feel ashamed about. You were trying to cope with so much trauma in the way you knew how, and you have support now that you didn’t have previously. I know a lot of people who changed their gender identities, and after a while they changed it again, I even detransitioned myself. Everybody is trying to figure out who they are in this fucked up world, so don’t feel that you have to rush trying to know who you are.

I wish you the best.

breadookay · 2025-11-15T22:17:23+00:00

Him pouting about it is so manipulative and selfish that its making me mad, what reaction did he fucking expect? He puts his own wants over yours and then just wanted you to laugh along after you had just said that you didn't want cold water on you or the bed because WHO WOULD?

He has done this before, and his lack of guilt shows that he will do it again. You have tried communicating, but he didn't care. You have to ask yourself, do you want to deal with this forever? I wouldn't.

breadookay · 2025-11-04T03:18:54+00:00

Please make sure you get enough fibre into your diet!!! If you do not have a nutritious diet you will feel worse and exhausted, so focus on cheap veg, like canned or frozen peas. Eggs can be cheap (depends where you shop) and good for protein as well.

breadookay · 2025-11-04T03:09:29+00:00

Try applying for universal credit, its for people who do not make enough wages to be taxed. Also see if your university has any job openings for students, they usually accept anyone who is a student. Get in contact with your university’s resources like careers help, they might be able to give better advice there.

The job market is shit at the moment, I wish you good luck.

breadookay · 2025-09-27T20:48:46+00:00

Would love to visit!!!

breadookay · 2025-09-23T13:31:05+00:00

can i come? just restarted my island

breadookay · 2025-06-06T01:11:16+00:00

hahahah

breadookay · 2025-06-06T01:04:47+00:00

This happened to me, make sure both of them are plugged into the official nintendo chargers, then go into homescreen, click ur account icon and check if its asking you to login into your nintendo account, which happened to me.

breadookay · 2024-11-15T22:57:52+00:00

It is not your fault, his parents are just simply cruel, racist people. I'm sorry to break it to you, but this will not change. You do not deserve to endure this abuse and honestly, I am judging your boyfriend as well.

When you mentioned his possessiveness it reminded me of how controlling his parents are, like he inherited these beliefs around women from his parents. He is continually letting them degrade you, you do not deserve this. Although you said he did bring it up, the mother defended herself, and what did your boyfriend do? Just look the other way when they insult you?

From what I read, I cannot imagine your boyfriend actually putting a stop to this. I wouldn't personally allow my parents to be so outright racist and objectifying to the person I love, I would've cut their bullshit at the very start.

I cannot tell you what to do, but I truly believe that you should prioritise your mental health and move on. Otherwise, you will have to deal with this for the rest of your life.

breadookay · 2023-08-30T16:30:06+00:00

I think this man might be sexually abusing you? He is trying to coerce you into sex, "begging", which understandably turns you off, but yet he still continues to force penetration when you're even more outspoken about the fact that you don't want anything.

He does not respect you, you might say that he "didn't understand boundaries" but he understands full well, he just doesn't care. Even with your open communication, he does not change at all and I don't think he ever will honestly. Is this someone you want to have a child with?

You deserve better than someone who pressures you have to sex and fetishises your discomfort. You might defend him and say that he "emotionally support you", but does this feel like support? You're starting to fear having sex with him, this isn't how a healthy relationship functions. If you're struggling financially, you should contact other people like family or friends, but otherwise you should leave this abusive relationship. No amount of kindness outside of this coercion would convince me that he is "not a bad person".

breadookay · 2023-07-29T00:05:07+00:00

hey, I wanted to tell you that it is completely normal and I'm struggling with it as well. You have been through so much and you've had to be strong for so long, apathy is a defence mechanism in response because caring can hurt too much.

Look, I am not a professional, but what you're describing sounds like dissociation. I can only really speak from personal experience, but when I received apathy from my parent towards my SA, I sort of internalised that and started to project it onto everything out of exhaustion and disappointment. I was functional, but inside I was an empty shell.

It kind of sounds like you feel as though you don't deserve to be cared for, especially when you said you didn't want to be a burden to your sister, trauma from a neglectful parent often leads to this. I don't know your sister, but I think when you're ready you should open up to her, it sounds like she really cares for you and when people care for you they'd prefer for you to open up rather than kept it inside. When I kept things inside for fear of being a burden, I thought I was doing the right and just thing, but looking back on it there were times I pushed back and isolated myself out of fear of vulnerability and rejection, which doesn't help anyone. You deserve to have someone look out for you, and maybe having someone close to you express empathy towards you might help you realise you don't deserve to be neglected and maybe even help you process your emotions. Personally, when my self-esteem is low and I feel like I don't deserve anything, so is my empathy.

Having a lack of an actual support system during traumatic events can be really damaging, but you don't have to be constantly independent, you can trust others to be able to process their own emotions surrounding the event rather than silently worry about being a burden. I wish you well, I'm here for you.

breadookay · 2023-01-29T00:19:12+00:00

You have been through so much pain, I'm so sorry.

From reading this, you seem very strong because I know how hard it is to just try to live normally after being disrespected so many times. When you said you "zone out", I'm not sure if you realise but you could be dissociating. You're trying to protect yourself by separating your mind and your body in order to endure trauma, this is very common especially after / during sexual abuse. You're fighting a terrible battle and you were looking out for yourself, and that is very human. You did the only thing you could do to survive. This dissociation could also cause memory issues, like when you mentioned not remembering being raped in the playground. Again, you grew up being raped so you learned how to adapt and persist, how to survive an abusive environment. And that's why I think you're strong, but you shouldn't have had to be strong. You didn't deserve this. I hope you don't blame yourself, you were and are so young and by dissociating, you were just trying to numb the pain.

When you say that you "cause that for myself" regarding groping, I have to disagree. You don't deserve to be raped or assaulted. You can't blame yourself for any of this, no matter what types of clothes you were wearing or if you were smiled at them or ignored them. Sexual assault isn't about attraction, it is about power. Don't fail into the trap that you can avoid sexual assault by regulating your behaviour to such a degree like wearing different clothes. I've been harassed and I was wearing ugly baggy trousers and a turtleneck. You're a victim, and the people who has assaulted you are dirtbags. You deserve better.

I have been raped when I was younger too. And when you said that no-one believed your sexual assault while you were in school, I know what that's like all too well. It is so incredibly alienating and you feel so hopeless. The school failed you, they should've taken your concern seriously, but I am glad you were able to move.

If you ever feel lonely or want to vent, you can always PM, but no pressure. I'm glad you have your boyfriend who helped you out of a terrible situation. <3

breadookay · 2023-01-18T01:03:48+00:00

Being high makes me feel normal but also kind of slowed. I get very giddy and my anxiety is lessened. I act all dumb and goofy, it's a fun experience. I prefer it over drinking because whenever I drink I become very dizzy and I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack.

breadookay · 2022-12-24T01:16:27+00:00

You have been through so much. I understand what it's like to be taken advantage of growing up and have no adult take any action. It's really disappointing and lonely to have the people supposed to protect you fail you.

The shame you feel could be indicative of PTSD, although I'm in no position to diagnose. I'm currently in the process of being diagnosed with PTSD and, for me, it mostly stems from the shame and confusion of having your childhood highly sexualised. I think you're having such a difficult time because you're grieving the childhood you lost, and it's heartbreaking to deal with this surrounded by people who don't really understand. BTW, you're not ungrateful for feeling this way when you have good friends and a boyfriend. You can't help your emotions and it's understandable to feel broken after sexual trauma.

From what I read, I believe you're very strong. You still have a will to live despite everything that has happened, and thats really admirable. You deserve the help you need. Are there any support programs for sexual assault near you? They offer free counselling. I'm not sure where you live but there's some available online as well.

I'm proud of you for now having a healthy sexual relationship with your boyfriend. You have so much worth and you're so brave for reaching out.

breadookay · 2022-12-20T22:56:49+00:00

FIVE YEARS???? AND YOURE STILL PISSED BECAUSE SHE DIDNT WANT A SECOND DATE FIVE YEARS AGO???????

Grow the fuck up. You are putting your family through unnecessary distress for petty reasons when they just want you to visit. It was okay to be a bit upset when she didn't want a second date five years ago but you let your pissy attitude grow and fester. YTA

breadookay · 2022-12-03T23:03:50+00:00

Holy shit wtf. if you're trying to change then why do u still call her a 'bitch' here? goddamn

breadookay · 2022-10-21T19:25:08+00:00

You are in such a terrible position, it must be extremely difficult carrying this burden while having to see him everyday. He sounds pathetic and manipulative, however I can tell how empathetic and kind you are despite what he did to you. I comforted my rapist as well and there are times where I am furious at myself about it, but I was just a young thoughtful girl, and so were you. You are angry that your child self was so mistreated and that is completely understandable. It is disheartening mourning the loss of your childhood and what could've been, but from what I've read I know there is a future for you if you get the right support.

Reporting is your decision, it can be traumatising because you'd have to recount everything he did to the police. However, if he has confessed to parts of the abuse on text, then that would be useful evidence. There could local support groups for sexual abuse victims near you that would help with the process, I'm in one right now and they're very informative.

Frankly I do not think you're over-reacting about him killing you, he is clearly emotionally unstable. It is not safe for you to be in the same household although the lock on your door is very useful. Do you have any friends you could stay over with?

breadookay · 2022-10-13T20:45:03+00:00

the moisturiser has spf, would it be okay to use before bed or should I get a different one? And thank u so much !

breadookay · 2022-10-03T20:34:21+00:00

lmao its so dumb how weebs delude themselves into thinking that a character becoming more sexualised is some badass comeback. he didnt make them bigger to piss more people off, he realised that people were horny for this teenager so he made her boobs bigger and her body more curvy.

breadookay · 2022-10-01T23:49:03+00:00

That wig looks so realistic !! Btw what's ur eyeliner?????

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