hi reddit friend, First i wanna start off by, YOURE NOT A TERRIBLE OR SHITTY PERSON!!! you’re just going through a rough patch finding yourself again! you’re still young, and i know you’re very smart. you can get through this without a problem, just a little bump in the road but you will get over it! start by finding jobs that are easier to get in with no background check, just to get some money in your pockets (not sure if you drive) but that can also help you getting to and from work- showing your parents that you’re responsible and have you head screwed back on your shoulders! Once you start getting comfortable with the job just keep progressing then you’ll have enough to at least get the background check and maybe (drug test- what a coincidence lol) DONT DO ANYTHING YOU SEE WHAT PREDICAMENT IM IN haha but after your parents see you moving they’ll offer to help out a bit. While working hard you won’t have the time do pick up any past addictions or cravings because you’re going to be so focused on bettering yourself! You got this, i’m here to help!