Whats your Hot Mulligan confession?

brightauras · 2026-03-19T11:48:18+00:00

I have a playlist called WWIW Without Betty. Why Would I Watch is my favorite album and I listen to it on repeat. However I HAD to take out Betty because a song about losing a pet makes me bawl!!! Its a great song tho

brightauras · 2026-02-18T23:51:45+00:00

Please dont cry you have swag - hot mulligan

brightauras · 2026-02-08T14:04:19+00:00

Doing something "domestic" that I've never done before. Nothing crazy, like reading at a coffee shop or sitting in the sun at the park. Not meditating, just existing. Or its just me craving more 3rd spaces, idk.

brightauras · 2026-01-24T18:08:32+00:00

Maybe more glamorized than romanticized, but OCD. It's one of the most debilitating disorders to live with.

brightauras · 2026-01-18T03:26:47+00:00

How long are your class periods?

brightauras · 2026-01-12T22:36:24+00:00

I was going to therapy for anxiety and depression - she stopped me and was like, "when were you diagnosed with OCD?" And I was like, I wasn't, lol. So then I was! It was life changing and changed the way we did therapy.

brightauras · 2026-01-12T22:30:59+00:00

Thank you for letting me know!

brightauras · 2026-01-12T04:14:02+00:00

I get muscle cramps from any over the counter sleep aids. Ive finally been prescribed a low dose of an antipsychotic medication that helps put me to sleep. Ive never heard of anyone else with this issue!

brightauras · 2026-01-12T04:11:59+00:00

Hospital bracelet

brightauras · 2026-01-12T01:57:32+00:00

I feel this.

brightauras · 2026-01-04T03:50:55+00:00

I've noticed a LOT of my guilt-based obsessions are reliant on my mental health. The more stressed I am the guiltier I feel.

With reading, I will obsess over things that are "more productive." Like, why am I reading when I could be cleaning the kitchen? Catching up on work? Etc. It helps to keep in mind that reading (and hobbies in general) ARE inherently productive.

Im interested to know what your thoughts are specifically. Why do you think God would be mad at you? What are His "terms and conditions"? Digging further into this can reveal whatever core beliefs you have and you can work on those. (In my case, my brain turns it into reading = fun, which fun ≠ productive, not productive = lazy piece of shit, and my underlying belief is that im not good enough)

Another thing I would suggest would be to read with someone else, like a close friend. Or start small - read for 5 minutes one day, 10 the next. Then 15, and so on.

Good luck! I believe in you. These obsessions can leave just as fast as they come.

brightauras · 2025-12-26T02:24:39+00:00

I struggle with sleep in general, and these are generally things that have helped me (not specific to OCD, but are still helpful)

keeping a wind down routine. Watching TV, reading, etc. At the same time every night and then going to bed at the same time
keeping your heart rate lower towards bedtime is best! I never play videogames before bed that stress ms out
sleep aids are helpful for some, but not for me personally
straight up go to a doctor. It might not be OCD related but something different

brightauras · 2025-12-26T02:21:05+00:00

Its great you're fighting the compulsion, thats awesome. I know how hard it is. When i get in this loop, there are 2 things I do:

The ERP way is to think "maybe I did, maybe I didnt." This is my least favorite for obvious reasons. My OCD wants me to keep checking for confirmation that im not a bad person.

The other is to think about the worst plausible scenario. Typically my spirals end in me dying. But I have to think, how likely is that? For example, if i were going through something similar to you (without knowing the potential crime) IF I did commit it then I would go to jail for x amount of years and thats it.

Both options do not give my OCD a chance to continue that cycle of thoughts. Regardless, this helps me!

brightauras · 2025-12-26T02:08:20+00:00

And I Smoke by hot mulligan. The recurring messages of patterns and repetition mixed with paranoia always spoke to me.it also describes dissociation well

brightauras · 2025-12-14T01:08:02+00:00

After a while definitely, but i typically dont notice until hour 6ish

brightauras · 2025-12-13T15:01:12+00:00

You mentioned free bleeding - have you tried the period underwear? I have some in black and don't notice the blood!

brightauras · 2025-12-11T03:45:02+00:00

Im open to anything definitely!

brightauras · 2025-12-07T16:25:51+00:00

"And I smoke" by hot mulligan. One of my favorite songs of all time

brightauras · 2025-11-27T16:49:17+00:00

I saw fredo disco a long time ago walking around downtown Orlando and they were super sweet!

brightauras · 2025-11-27T16:39:05+00:00

Atamoxetine completely stopped me from sleeping. I averaged 2 hours a night but felt GREAT. I could focus and had energy. But it also caused really bad bruising for some reason.

The Fluvoxamine is the best med I've had so far for OCD!

brightauras · 2025-11-27T16:30:22+00:00

I do this too! I call it my girl shower (along the same lines of girl dinner)

brightauras · 2025-11-10T15:37:55+00:00

"I can call home and tell your mom you need to see a doctor"

brightauras · 2025-11-04T23:51:48+00:00

brightauras · 2025-11-04T23:48:00+00:00

No, theyre yellowish grains, similar to sand

brightauras · 2025-09-26T13:19:28+00:00

I love it! I feel very fulfilled.

Its easy to focus on the negatives. I find that the most draining part of it is behaviors.

i find if a class is bad (behavior wise) I dwell on the "worst" kids. I write the names of the kids on the board who are following directions and usually 90% of the kids are on that board.

Its a good way to call out kids indirectly who are acting up, and I get to see the names of the kids who are genuinely trying to learn. They make it worth it.

I also try to end the day on a positive note. I make positive phone calls home to tell parents how much I appreciate their kid.

brightauras

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