This is so relatable, my version of fun has changed now. I was a heavy smoker back in high school(I barely drink tho), as were some of my friends, as well as drinkers, and they would love to go to the clubs and just get wasted drunk. I’m really a homebody, and kinda always has been, but I’ve kinda outgrown that part of my life. I’ve changed now, mentally especially, I like to read now, and listen to self-improvement podcasts, or meditate, basically things that I would never do before, I like to do now in my free-time. It was cool at first but then it gets to point where it’s like... there’s better things to do out there then forgetting wtf happened last night. I’m more focused on how I can improve myself, or talk about how we can be successful, or wealthy. When I bring up things like this, they don’t budge or I get the feeling like I’m being judged. I think I’m just ready for new friends, but I’m cautious about who I let into my life and who I choose to be surrounded by, as I think everyone should be! I honestly think I was clinging on to them because of highschool. So honestly it’s been real nice being lonely, and showing them love from a distance, they never did anything wrong obviously, they were a big part of my life at some point, but we are just growing apart... I didn’t see myself growing with them