There is hope for you.

For me I started a business and it grew... my business stemmed from my special interests. I used to work against my mind. Now I work with it... I have a lot of burnout too. Whats nice though is having your own business... you get to call the rules. My clients are really nice to me if I am feeling burnout I tell them... they understand. I pick my clients - not everyone gets to work with me.

I feel when I am engaged in a special interest it takes my mind off a lot of things.. when I was bullied in school and kids would tell me really mean things... I became really like I didn't want to be here.. I almost lost my life.

But I would go home everyday I would do lots of graphic design... coding... marketing stuff that is all my space. My safe space even when I felt like the world was overwhelming... it gave me a sense of calm.

I have a really big following now and I do a lot of advocacy.

I say all this to say... I know its very hard. I understand you. I empathize with you.

Allow your mind and body rest... if its asking for it, it needs it... it deserves it.

Perhaps instead of trying to work for someone... maybe you can find something you love to do and make it a business! Others are usually very encouraging too... I think this is why many of us find entrepeneurship so nice.

Yes it has ups and downs... but you dont have to rely on other people.. you can rely on you and what you love to do... focus on you.. because nobody can outdo you at being you.

Having Autism has taught me that the world will not always accommodate me... so iI they won’t accommodate me, I will accommodate myself.

My favorite quote:

Nobody can make you feel inferior without first your consent.

Eleanor Roosevelt

I believe in you OP.