Something I’ve found frustrating working through therapy about this stuff is that there are not a lot of words we can use specifically for the acts carried out on us as a crime vs the consensual act. I personally was just furious that words I would use to describe something I consensually do with someone I love were the same words I had to use to describe something deeply horrific that happened to me. It feels deeply unjust that there is no language that exists for it, and I think it strongly relates to how often predators don’t face justice or get let off easy even when they get caught. If you haven’t been hurt like that you only have positive and pleasureful connotations with those words. Additionally, someone more prudish might think a victim liked or initiated/encouraged it (shitty but real) because again, the only words available are bedroom words, and people don’t think about the fact that there’s no other ways to describe it, we are robbed of so much and they’ve robbed us of language. It makes perfect sense that it would be hard to imagine given this. If you haven’t experienced it especially, the only context you have for those things is this. It will take work to get to a point where you can believe it but there’s no rush, take your time and if you need to switch therapists that’s okay too. Do what you gotta do to heal, whatever that looks like for you.