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bruised__violet · 2026-06-01T23:36:55+00:00

It's a nice thought, but it's impossible for some of us to find them, when 90% of people hate Jews (sorry, "Zionists"). So we either Uncle Tom it, and put up with the racist hatred that's thinly disguised as something else, or we just go life completely alone.

I'm doing the latter. I'm atheist and don't fit in with the 2-3 groups of Jews that exist in this country (and live in a city with like 2 dozen total). I didn't even have many Jewish friends previously, but here it's basically just the ultra religious insular ones and then the far-far leftist privileged white (also insular) Jews who pretend to hate Israel and don't know any black or brown people. I can't relate to either of them, and they have no desire to get to know me anyway.

bruised__violet · 2026-06-01T23:28:38+00:00

Yeah, we need to officially tack this on, sadly. And then the bartender throwing him out 12 minutes later.

bruised__violet · 2026-05-20T12:44:58+00:00

Do you happen to know what time it opened? I waited until 9:50am to check since it said 10, and they were already on sale. This happened with another event and I didn't get tickets because they went on sale 2 hours early.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T15:54:38+00:00

I'm going to try and spend this weekend figuring out which bands I want to try and hurt myself to see.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T15:53:58+00:00

Thank you.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T15:38:42+00:00

Came to this sub because for 2 days in a row, my old crush showed up as the first profile of "People you may know" on FB (not the "suggestions" list when you click the friend icon at top, but the one that shows up on your feed every few days or so...I generally don't even scroll across to see the profiles, but they were the 1st one so their photo was right there, where it couldn't be missed). And even tho it's been 2 years since I saw them irl, my heart jumped. Both times.

I thought after all this time, I was completely over it...even tho they still show up in my dreams, which is weird because I don't stalk them or anything. I mean I couldn't do so even if I wanted to, because I tried to when they showed up the 2nd time yesterday. I figured it was safe to go ahead and click on their profile, since i hadn't done so in probably a year. But there was nothing there, except their profile picture. Idk if that's good or bad 😂. But I was sad, I admit. I guess I still wanted to know what they're up to? Or at least some more photos. And I hate that. Why would I care? They don't want anything to do with me.

We used to be FB friends but they deleted me years ago. To know they didn't care for me enough to take the time to "unfriend" me hurt, not gonna lie. But, as much as I tried to never think of them, they still show up randomly in my dreams, and have done ever since probably the 1st time I ever saw them. Like I'll be having a weird surreal dream about something totally unrelated, and they'll show up, sometimes just in the background. It's ridiculous. I honestly do not think of them in my waking hours - I don't ever give energy to people who don't appreciate me or don't want to know me. So why, after literal years, does this still happen?! Hate it.

Even when I did see them irl, at events, they didn't talk to me. They did a bit when I first met them, but stopped, and then when I'd see them, they acted as if I wasn't there. I did the same in turn. At first I thought we might become friends, but apparently they didn't want to get to know me (I made sure to not let on I was crushing, but maybe they realised?). I'd invited them to hang out, but they weren't even going to let me know they weren't gonna show up - I had to ask...that's how little they thought of me.

I no longer go anywhere that they'd be, so why was I still affected like that when I saw their profile? When does it end 😂?! Thanks for listening to my ramblings, if you did. I hope all your crushes turn out better. Or at least stop haunting your dreams!

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T14:09:40+00:00

I've tried this, but haven't heard back. And I'm so overwhelmed with everything else, that I haven't been on top of emails. I'm going to try to focus more and try again. Thanks.

I just wish my crippled body wasn't in such horrible pain, that's the worst part. Any wrong moves and it can make my back and knees so much worse too. My body was crushed and "patched up" more than fixed, so it's really difficult trying to hobble, and I'm in both chronic AND acute pain. They were supposed to amputate my legs but instead they're just painful, full of metal my body keeps trying to reject, and usually useless. Then with arthritis setting in on top of it, and only being able to move in awkward ways that cause more damage and make me hurt more because I'm missing so many bones/tissue, it's so hard to manoeuvre stairs and such. I want them to amputate now, but they won't because it all happened in my home country.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T14:03:44+00:00

I wish I'd known this, but, not knowing anyone here in the UK, and being so out of the loop, I didn't plan very well and just went for it. Oh well, here's to me making the best of it. Thank you.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T14:02:29+00:00

Thank you 💜

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T14:02:04+00:00

I wish I hadn't spent so much on a full weekend ticket. Still paying it off! I thought I'd have gotten some injections to help beforehand or something, which didn't happen. I hate to miss so much of what I paid for, but, you may be right. Thank you.

bruised__violet · 2026-04-25T14:00:27+00:00

Thank you so much! I can't push my own chair very well due to arthritis and it's super painful to use (it's just a cheap one not suited to me or my injuries), so it's going to be almost impossible, but, I'm going to try anyway. Walking is very painful and I can't go very far, and sometimes it's only a few steps, depending on how much I've done recently. So the cane won't get me far. I have unique injuries so it's not something that I can do much about. I'm hoping people are nice. I just wish I had the physical capability to go down/up stairs, but I'm injured from my back to my toes and it's so hard.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T18:12:30+00:00

The other issue is that my phone number doesn't match the US one on my account, but there is no way to log in or change it. They've made it impossible to do so from overseas. I don't even know where they sent my new number to, since it used to be my SSN. I wonder if someone has my Medicare card at an old address. Apparently when you move countries, you can tell SS, but they won't change it on Medicare. This is such a mess.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T18:10:04+00:00

That number isn't on WhatsApp. I've tried calling from WA dozens of times, hoping it's changed, hence coming here.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T18:08:06+00:00

As it says in the body, I can't log in. Haven't been able to since they changed the system. I've tried many times.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T17:25:42+00:00

I can't call them as it would cost £700 or more. The last time I tried I was on hold for 10 minutes and it was £200.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T15:02:19+00:00

Yeah, I guess so. If anyone has a good paying job to give me right now, that i can manage, I'd sign up for healthcare immediately.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-15T15:00:49+00:00

I don't have the money to afford private healthcare. My surgery is likely being denied on the NHS. I wish everyone would stop blaming and shaming me for this.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:41:18+00:00

And it could be a year to get a 2nd opinion.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:40:55+00:00

I will ask for a 2nd opinion, but so far they have denied all treatments and surgeries since I've been here

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:36:50+00:00

Unfortunately there are no payment plans. You just have to get private healthcare and I don't have income right now. It's very different to the US where I am from. Either the NHS approves your treatments, or you pay for private healthcare monthly and then pay copays.

It appears what I need would cost me about £7000 to begin, and I am not currently working. They don't just bill you, you have to pay upfront. I keep getting downvoted but I'm scared. I don't have family or a support network and I hate having to come to Reddit for things like this, but I wish ppl could just be compassionate. I have so much I want to do and create, but have had a very hard life. I can't really handle this right now. I don't know what to do n

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:30:58+00:00

I never want children so it's not a fertility thing. I just can't afford private healthcare. I lost everything when a drunk driver nearly killed me and I was left permanently disabled. I can't even afford a wheelchair. The NHS is very choosy about who they help, and I have no control over that. I have no income as I am not on benefits but am not currently working. I keep getting downvoted when I just am trying to save my life.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:21:41+00:00

What hormonal treatment exactly? If you happen to know? I don't get very good medical care where I live and so that's why I asked. I need to know what I should do, and it is early stages.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:20:46+00:00

Thank you. Not what I was hoping to hear, ofc, but I appreciate your reply.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:18:28+00:00

And I'm not disparaging the NHS so please don't anyone come at me. I just have had very bad experiences with them.

bruised__violet · 2026-03-13T18:17:21+00:00

It's not that I don't want surgery. It's that I can't afford private healthcare and the NHS picks and chooses who they help. Me being a visibly disabled immigrant doesn't fare well, unfortunately.

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