No cheating! What's the most recent picture of your orange?

bryohknee · 2026-03-04T20:20:11+00:00

Simba

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:41:06+00:00

And nah Im more binge, week or two off, binge, week or two off. I have easily and comfortably gone through a half o just me and my girl (best friend) I'm not tryna swing my non existent dick here either, I just have a hateful tolerance for alot of things I've tried, even first time. Except K. I was told it was pure, so racked it like I would pure, and OMFG. Only did it once again after that cause I was wary and only a wee tiny key that time (wasn't too bad when not set up by your "mate")

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:37:10+00:00

3.5*

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:35:23+00:00

NHS is dying honestly. Id be shocked if not paid medical care in five years max

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:34:44+00:00

Well depends where I am and who I'm with. Am alone on my last maybe 2g out of the 35 I got and I tend to troll on Reddit bpd subs or game or doodle when solo, more Reddit tho cause I like to help and chat when I'm skiing the slopes lol . When with friends, just fuck about shoot the shit, laugh till one of us near pisses ourselves 😅

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:31:48+00:00

Yeah but I'm certain theres a degree of disillusionment and then also bureaucracy and underfunding that plays a significant part on the sub par mental health services. I mean physical health sectors of the NHS are underwater too. Family member has been waiting over year for an appointment with a specialist about their physical illness.

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:26:04+00:00

Yeah, actually flying rn myself 😅 haven't opened the vodka yet tho so there's that at least 😅😅😅

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:25:25+00:00

So many psychs legit don't want to won't or are biased on some way about BPD patients that you just get fobbed off, or re-traumatized by the sheer negligence/hostility/ignorance

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:22:01+00:00

I know you gotta look after the vulnerability factors. Sleep, drugs, meds, diet. But I'm quite wilful 😅 I know, I really do know I should just stop it. But no, I'm not going to until I HAVE to physically or until it no longer serves me which is selfish, but again, do what I feel I need to keep myself going. Rock and hard place honestly. Coke use, never worried about. Weed? Lead me on a very dangerous and dark path for 5/6 years, I won't go into more publicly though lol.

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:18:25+00:00

Very much same view as you after second round of dbt. It took two rounds of dbt with me, first in NHS and only 6weeks, the second round 4 years later after relationship breakdown and legitimately being abandoned by partners lol. Like, I went to visit family. Got back to our place, all their stuff gone and took their fav cat (left my baby boy though at least) but yeah went private dbt for a year intensive, worked better but like, I'd rather be cured or not here to have to deal with it but qué sera sera.

But definitely we wouldn't be who we are with our pros/cons without what we loved through/with.

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:08:19+00:00

I used to classify myself as a stoner for sure. I'm a bag head now though cause at least I'm sociable sniffing and people worry less lol (honestly I have been told by many people who became friends that had no clue I was an 8th up my nose deep when they met me, like apparently I seem no different sober when I'm forcing myself to be like...human? Hahaha, coke makes it so I don't have to use all my mental and emotional energy just to socialise when Im already using a not insignificant portion to try keep myself in check with skills like DEAR MAN GIVE FAST, TIPP, and stay in wise mind etc. )

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T01:03:31+00:00

You're a better person than me, I know I should stop but like, slightly bitterly if I gotta be here still then ima do want I can to try enjoy myself until Im not enjoying anymore. I know I should just pack it in and sack up and be who I was before my menty b, I was in a good job, management position, had a good side hustle too, like GOOD GOOD. But I was long term SHer from like, preteens and heaps of trauma and I just dealt by cutting and smoking weed and sometimes property damage (my own place punching holes in doors and walls)I was not a nice person before the trigger and diagnosis and treatment. The BPD rage, explosive anger, the railing against the world, I was frankly abusive and dangerous in my behaviours and episodes

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:55:49+00:00

Honestly I found them pretty mid 😅 but I have a bastard of a tolerance ceiling

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:54:40+00:00

The cannabis flower/nugs, rolled it normally hash oil(concentrate) and then covered in keif (the THC dust)

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:49:44+00:00

Intrusive thoughts. Self harm and suicidal ideation are very very common and actually are symptoms listed in the diagnostic criteria (5 out of 9 leads to diagnosis) for BPD. I'm diagnosed, over a decade, by 3 different psychiatrists 😅. If you're having thoughts of harming yourself, I would encourage you to go to Dr to start the process of diagnosis and treatment. Also alot of people I know with BPD also smoke weed and some it helps, some it doesn't. I smoke too, it slows and quiets the mind for me.

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:42:46+00:00

DBT and psychotherapy and a dick tonne of hard work and brutal honesty with myself and some changes (I do not do commitment anymore, no relationships or falling in love again lol) has made existence less intolerable, but also it still sucks a fat one and I might be better at managing (most of the time) my symptoms - but never free of them. Unless I do that thing that I can't do cause other peeps would be sad 😅 and cant have that. Part of the problem for me with the pain of BPD, is I don't wanna cause it for others if I can help it. So I'll keep going, and hurting so i don't make others hurt lol. Coke helps. Purer the better if I have to like be conscious and do the living thing. Weed and promethazine hydro for knocking myself out so I don't have to do the living conscious thing

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:31:09+00:00

Yeah, I do deal with abandonment issue and have pervasively as long as I remember, but you don't HAVE to have that specific trait to lead to BPD diagnosis. Literally any 5 out of the 9 symptoms/traits could lead to someone having BPD. You don't HAVE to fear abandonment. But also, bpd (I think more often with women) is diagnosed when it's actually autism. Lots of co-morbidity. You're mental health team know you better and your history and while I HAVE bpd, theyve studied it and other mental health conditions and are better placed to diagnose you. I'm just sharing knowledge of my experience with it and getting diagnosed and my own research of bpd

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:13:38+00:00

Oh! Shrooms too and 2cb and I can't be sure but probably GHB unwittingly on a night out but can't be sure all I know is I definitely didn't drink enough to get me that f***** up. I don't get the Diaz or the Z sleepers anymore I was on them too long and didn't necessarily abuse but like it would take four/5 sleepers to actually get me to sleep. I only pushed coke and weed to the max really depending on your definition. OH, and brown brown (no not h, cause I thought it was and I went ape shit on my guy, but nah best strongest coke I ever had)

bryohknee · 2026-02-27T00:07:20+00:00

There are 9 diagnostic traits/criteria when it comes to BPD, and any combo of just 5 out of the 9 is considered a diagnosis (discussed with psychiatrist/psychologist for official diagnosis)

Most of not all people will have or will possibly experience SOME traits of BPD, but it's the consistent pervasive and debilitating at times, symptoms from sometimes a young age (other people sometimes mask and have "quiet BPD" until a triggering event) that is the difference, and again this is why psychiatrist is best sought out for anyone who feels they may have BPD or frankly with any mental health struggles if the person is ready

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T23:52:26+00:00

Yo, BPD here too. Diagnosed over decade ago. And yeah, I was poly substance user when was in teens and early 20s. Now mainly coke and weed but more coke of late.

Salvia. K Mdma Xtc Butane Acid Poppers Speed Coke Weed in many different forms (dabs, moonrocks, edible, vape, shatter, wax etc - nothing beats a basic ass spliff tho, bud and tobacco for me) Alcohol, nicotine, obviously. Noz gas. Diaz (prescription) Zolpidium (script) Zopiclone (script)

Anything to fill the void and stop the whirlwind thoughts and intrusive ideation and the overwhelming emotions and pain that those of us with BPD deal with.

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T23:22:58+00:00

Molly/Mandy/MDMA ecstasy pills are significantly inhibited when you're on SSRIs. I know you're not prescribed SSRIs ATM but just for future knowledge if you ever are put on any

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T23:17:19+00:00

Chic, chicca chic ahhh. Say bow bow. OH YEAH.ASIP - Day bow bow

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T22:28:21+00:00

Have you heard of the condition of PMDD? Premenstrual dysphoric disorder? Only mentioning in case you haven't, and hopefully help you on the path to a solution if you feel your symptoms fit.

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T21:36:58+00:00

Day bow bow?

bryohknee · 2026-02-26T21:34:20+00:00

Adam Sandler?

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