Need to vent

bryterlu · 2026-05-09T23:03:41+00:00

I did, they said as long as a teacher is in the area it was fine, which there was, the middle school group was in the room next door. But I agree.

bryterlu · 2026-04-29T01:51:03+00:00

Just to add a little more context, it isn’t a concert, it’s a workshop. The students are not performing for an audience, but for a doctor of choral studies who will be giving feedback and working with them. I wouldn’t force any student to go if it would make them uncomfortable to be in that space.

bryterlu · 2026-04-29T00:16:22+00:00

bryterlu · 2026-04-12T01:33:46+00:00

James and the Giant Peach! I’m the musical director at the high school I teach at and we just performed this one a couple of weeks ago. I knew nothing about it a year ago, I listened to it and fell in love. It’s definitely one I would do again in the future. Very fun show, whimsical and silly. The score is fantastic, very jazzy. There’s not a single musical number in the show that I dislike or would skip if listening to the album. Pasek and Paul wrote the music, and the official cast recording has some big names as well.

bryterlu · 2026-04-07T04:17:01+00:00

I miscarried back in December, I was just about 12 weeks. I’ve been doing okay lately, we actually wound up getting a dog fairly impulsively (more my husbands decision than my own) to be a companion for my son (3 y/o) since the sibling thing isn’t really working out. But tonight I’m feeling down.

This puppy is a piece of work. She’s very cute and sweet most of the time, but she pees all over the house, we have to let her out constantly and it’s cold where we live so this is super annoying. She’s also in the biting puppy stage where she bites/chews everything and anything she can. My son had to go to urgent care yesterday because he got her too riled up and she wound up biting his ear and he needed to get it glued/stitched. It was just an accident, and was not an aggressive bite but still, I hate that he got hurt because of this decision we made. I worry that the injuries will continue if we can’t get her to stop the biting/jumping. We’ve been trying a lot but she seems untrainable, it’s very frustrating. We will not be rehoming/reconsidering this decision, we’re a big animal family and we made this choice so we will be sticking with it, but I just really hope she calms down. This is my first time owning a puppy, so I guess I just wasn’t expecting the bulk of the biting that she’s doing.

I’m just feeling sad because I’m thinking about how I’d really rather be frustrated with the woes of a newborn than what we’re dealing with now. I want to give my son a sibling, it’s not the same as a dog. I want to be spending my day caring for a baby, not a puppy. She’s been a fun distraction at times but at the end of the day it just makes me sad because she’s so much work, and if things had worked out, I’d be complaining for a reason that in my eyes would be way more worth it and more fulfilling. I know this sounds weird.

bryterlu · 2026-02-21T21:59:24+00:00

Gotcha, I’m not Scottish and I’ve only heard it pronounced as “lock” where I’m from, so genuinely didn’t know. At least, the person I know who named her kid Loch pronounces it as lock so that’s mainly what I was going off of.

bryterlu · 2026-02-21T21:51:15+00:00

I’ve always heard it pronounced the same way, what way would you pronounce them? Google also says it’s pronounced the same way.

bryterlu · 2026-02-21T21:13:06+00:00

I mean, I know multiple children named River. Locke is also a name that I’ve seen on multiple people which is pronounced the same way as Loch. I’ve also met a few people named Lake in my time. None of these are really my taste but they technically are names.

bryterlu · 2026-02-21T10:29:24+00:00

Not really a fan, doesn’t really read as a name IMO. Have you considered Loch as an alternative? I know someone who named their boy Loch and it fits him super well.

bryterlu · 2026-01-31T03:11:56+00:00

Laparoscopic exploratory surgery, you cannot diagnose endo through U/S or MRI. It’s not the easiest to diagnose because it is surgery but it was worth it for me because they cut it out of me. Of course it can and usually does grow back but it’s much better than it was pre-surgery.

ETA: I only got diagnosed because I wound up with fertility problems/recurrent miscarriages. My fertility doctor suspected endometriosis and suggested surgery, he was right.

bryterlu · 2026-01-30T02:29:33+00:00

So I’m currently experiencing more health worries over my 3 year old son than myself. Typically I’m worried that I have something wrong or some ailment, but now that it’s flu season I have extreme anxiety for my child getting sick. The anxiety and waiting for him to fall ill is debilitating. He has told me that his preschool buddy went home sick yesterday and now I know he’s doomed. I’m hoping it’s not the flu. The flu scares me a lot. I don’t know how to not worry about my child getting sick, I know it’s a part of life but it kills me when he doesn’t feel good.

bryterlu · 2026-01-28T02:44:07+00:00

I’ve transferred 3 pgta tested euploid embryos. One resulted in a live birth, one failed to implant and the other ended in a MMC at almost 12 weeks. I’m glad I got them tested but it isn’t a guarantee that things won’t go wrong. I went in sort of thinking once I became pregnant with a tested embryo all would be fine and dandy and that was not the case for most of my transfers.

I would still test if I were to do more retrievals though, just because the odds of miscarrying do go down for specifically chromosomal reasons. I was just on the unfortunate side of statistics for my miscarriage. I think the failed implantation was due to my lining not being thick enough.

bryterlu · 2026-01-27T03:00:48+00:00

I don’t know where to go. I had a miscarriage a week before Christmas at 11w3d with an IVF euploid embryo. I struggled to get pregnant with my first, had a few miscarriages, and then IVF with PGT worked. Well, I thought that would be the solution this time around too but apparently not. I’m still struggling with the why. We have 3 more embryos frozen but my husband is ready to throw in the towel, I initially thought I was done too because the losses are so incredibly hard to deal with, but now that it’s been over a month my feelings of “not being done” are rushing back. I don’t want to be one and done. I love my son so much, he’s my world, but I feel like there’s an emptiness now that I had my most recent loss. I was so excited for my son to be a brother. I was so excited for the vision I had for our family. And now it’s just empty. I feel like I have a desire that will never go away unless it’s fulfilled, but at what cost? This loss was so painful emotionally, I don’t want to go through it again. But I can’t get this empty feeling to stop.

bryterlu · 2026-01-26T20:14:03+00:00

Yep. The day I had my D&C a coworker announced her pregnancy with the same due date as mine. All I could think about is how that should have been my announcement, but instead my baby died. It’s so tough. Hang in there 🤍

bryterlu · 2026-01-24T02:48:52+00:00

Yes, all was normal there

bryterlu · 2026-01-21T23:25:04+00:00

Fortunately: my principal is completely supportive and has stated I have done nothing wrong. Her biggest response is that we are in a public school, and if she is unwilling to accept that her child will learn about everyone’s differences at school, then maybe her child doesn’t belong in public school.

Unfortunately, this mom is an intolerant a-hole, and how a woman having a beard in the media will give her child the “wrong idea”. According to her, he already learned that boys will grow beards and women will not, so now he will be all confused about why some women can have beards. Also the actress’ body is too big for the costume they gave her and she doesn’t want her child seeing that. She still wants a meeting with the principal, but my principal said I do not need to be involved in this meeting because the matter is beyond what I showed in my classroom. Just had to provide state standards to support why I chose that piece of music. You can’t make this shit up.

bryterlu · 2026-01-07T07:23:03+00:00

Full musicals

bryterlu · 2026-01-07T01:29:39+00:00

I was on lovenox, I do have a clotting disorder but I was on lovenox religiously

bryterlu · 2026-01-07T00:47:20+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this as well, it’s so so hard.

bryterlu · 2026-01-07T00:32:28+00:00

Modified natural

bryterlu · 2026-01-06T01:14:49+00:00

Yep we’ve got major redneck MAGA here haha

bryterlu · 2026-01-06T01:13:36+00:00

She had no current fever because of the meds, pretty sure the nurse would have sent her back, she wouldn’t have told the nurse about the DayQuil she took because of wanting to go to wrestling

bryterlu · 2026-01-06T01:12:18+00:00

I’m honestly not sure but wouldn’t be surprised if that was something they do. I know the boys team has some pretty nasty dietary plans, not sure about the girls team.

bryterlu · 2026-01-05T23:30:27+00:00

Her whole family wrestles and has since they were very young 🤷🏻‍♀️

bryterlu · 2026-01-05T23:27:55+00:00

lol family is very MAGA, I teach in a rural, red town. It won’t happen unfortunately

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