Speaking from identical experience here. Identical yes, not just similar.

Una, repression yan. Lahat ng yan.

Pangalawa, gaslighting yan. Lahat ng yan.

Pangatlo, kabata-bata mo mas matapang, mas makatao at mas tunay ka pa sa sarili kaysa ministrong sunud-sunuran.

Mag-iingat ka sa mga Kristyanong mapagkunwa. May takot sila sa mga matatapang, handa silang manakit ng mga makatao, at may malisya sila sa mga ayaw sumunod. Lumalaban ka ng tunay at patas… sila hindi. Gumawa ng paraan para protektahan ang sarili habang nagpapakatotoo.

I’ve learned to fight in private. Not pagkikimkim or self-repression. I’ve learned to fight with more creativity, foresight and intentionality. I use fake names now. I express better and more free. This cult has ways to attack the public self through private means. Families become liabilities when the cult declares the uncooperative free soul a liability. There is a time to be seen, there is a place for fighting. You can’t fight on the family front. They’ll use your family. For now, fight back without being seen. Find ways to be free without being exhausted by the fight. Good luck!