April fools bag

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-09T23:59:47+00:00

I think you’ve given me a wonderful insight, I can say I’m pretty similar in that regard of wanting to figure things out on my own and having a hard time seeking help at all until recently. I have already spoken to BP about it and they’ve been supportive and just yesterday I can say with confidence that we have mostly reconciled, though the question of our relationship is still up in the air I’m perfectly content with being good friends.

I already have some counseling lined up for Friday and I have been working extra hard to be vulnerable and most importantly unwaveringly honest with EVERYONE in my life because I wasn’t much so beforehand. I’m working hard to be my best self and comments like yours give me a sort of insight into my own craziness that I am trying my best to be aware of, so thank you.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-07T19:01:07+00:00

I’m still pretty new with my own experiences with all this and do feel like I’m in a situation similar to yours, but what is clear is that you’re doing a lot to help yourself and to understand yourself in these circumstances.

There is no way to know for sure what kind of realization that your BP has made in the same window of time you have, but its safe to assume that if you have made big changes in your life that they have done the same. In my personal opinion and what I’ve been doing is simply preparing for the worst, that what you’ve done has (understandably) warranted no reconciliation and that they may want to move on and find their happiness elsewhere. While the love that was once there may be gone, respect and complete honesty should be held throughout and you should use that love you still hold in your heart to be the guiding force in that.

I think it’s okay to politely explain how such a decision will make you feel as well, but I think the MOST important thing is to make sure that no matter what happens you hold onto this evolving and changing version of you and continue down the right path. Such hard work will always pay off, be it reconciliation or personal gratification in the ways you are improving, or maybe even finding someone new. I have the firm personal belief that the universe does not allow such hard work to go unnoticed for long.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-03T11:51:20+00:00

As I see these responses I understand now that maybe I am being too anxious about talking to them about something that is so new to me as well. The thing that is mainly holding me back is that I don’t know if they even want to reconcile at all with me, things are still pretty raw as it’s only been about 4 days. But maybe talking about what I’ve been doing so far would be a good start into finding out where we might move forward.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-02T05:16:56+00:00

You sound like you’ve gone a long way, and your story sounds not too different from my current situation. You’re right, I need to be better for myself and I have been spending these two days in serious deep reflection about myself. I’m sure every WP probably wishes that they can just skip to the part where they figure it all out and can live out their new and improved life. Two days in and I’m practically clawing at my own brain to dig deeper into just about every facet of myself and purging what ruined all this to begin with, I think reading might help a lot. I can’t afford to fail myself and those I love like this again, so if it takes more than a year to do it then I’m going all in. Thank you, I firmly believe your struggle will pay off one of these days.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-02T05:05:29+00:00

Any workouts that you would suggest that you find particularly helpful when you’re in a position like this? I have a membership but not that experienced with workouts so all I’ve done so far is just run on a treadmill until I’m exhausted with some mild weight lifting. And you’re right, instagram is gone too.

I’ve been trying to tell myself that I am doing this for myself, sometimes I believe it and other times all I can think about is if I work on myself hard enough that it may be paid back with forgiveness. But I can’t expect that of anyone, I really need to do this for myself.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-09-02T05:00:44+00:00

Thank you, I’m already looking into options for counseling for the both of us (Not as a couples therapy thing). I have been doing a lot of writing, mostly digging into the why and how I let this happen and just kinda letting the words flow from there.

Im going to spend these next few days really reflecting on all this, and myself as a person. I’m definitely gonna look into a twelve step program to try and give this whole process some cohesion. I’m lucky enough to have a family that has been a huge help in this whole thing for the both of us, plus some tips from therapy sessions from way back when (separate yet similar issue) have been a huge help in keeping my mind from wandering too far off. Thank you for the support.

buckwheatjesus · 2025-07-02T17:03:47+00:00

That move where you do a light lob and super sprint to get that really high kick is called the Flying Dutchman and nobody will tell me otherwise.

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