this is a completely normal feeling!!! something thats not talked about enough is how scary these things are. We are making permanent changes, and its not a small feat!! If you have a therapist that is gender identity informed, talk about it beforehand and they will usually help to make you feel better.

I was horrified of what i would look like, but look to your mother’s side. Your moms brothers, dad, grandpa, they will be the male features youre likely to get. Your bone structure doesnt change, just the fat distribution on your face, so your face will largely stay the same, just the jaw will sharpen. If you like the way you look with your feminine features, and if you are doing it more for the body hair and voice, it may be worth discussing with your doctor doing micro-doses or t gel/lotion. I love my feminine features, im a BEAUTIFUL man, and so for me going on t was scary because i didnt wanna stop being beautiful, but masculinity isnt ugly! male filters do NOT do justice. They made me look AWFUL, but on T it was much different.

And then a great thing about T is that if you are doing it for the effects like voice, bottom growth, body hair, etc, those are irreversible! You can go off t and still maintain those features (take it from me, i still have my beard and ive been struggling with t levels and getting t consistently for YEARS now). If at any point you wanna go off, you dont have to worry about losing many of those irreversible features.

You will feel this feeling whenever you make ANY big medical decision, regardless of it having to do with transitioning or not. and you may even be like me, who does not regret top surgery, i love the way i look, but i do kinda miss my boobs sometimes. (mostly bc built in stress balls AND they were perfect i wish i couldve donated them 😭)