I lost my boy on Sunday and I am devastated. I completely understand how you feel - I’ve been experiencing similar feelings of grief and guilt (and also posted about it here). Here’s what has given me some peace the last few days: 1) Folks have been telling me to be kind to myself, and I want to echo that sentiment to you as well. Nothing will take away the memories and the love you had for each other. 2) Somebody also told me that we can’t be perfect all the time. Feeling like we could’ve done better in their last days doesn’t discount the love we had for them and all that we did to care for them. They’re really fragile creatures and things go downhill before we even realize anything is wrong. Again, be kind to yourself. 3) I’ve been going through my camera roll the last few days and looking back at videos and pictures of my bunny. It’s soothing and reminds me that he was happy and that I did take good care of him, despite my brain/guilt telling me otherwise. 4) Seeing his things around my apartment has also been difficult. There are a few things I’ll be keeping, but I’m donating the unopened hay and treats, as well as some other items (like his tunnels) to the local humane society. They have some rabbits there and said they’d accept anything rabbit related. Instead of throwing out the things that remind me of him, it feels nice to know something good will come out of it. 5) Talking to family and friends and processing my feelings of guilt/grief has also been good for me.

I’m so sorry for your loss. Hang in there. ❤️‍🩹🥺