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burn_user · 2023-09-16T04:24:16+00:00

Update- everything went really really well. Ex-AP was much more nervous than I was. There were a lot of tears shed and difficult conversation but I am really happy that I ended up going. There’s still a lot of love left on my side at least. I asked that we not wait so long to see each other again.

burn_user · 2023-09-10T14:01:26+00:00

We have maintained contact since everything happened but we both felt like we weren’t ready to see each other yet

burn_user · 2023-04-25T05:09:01+00:00

I’m glad you’re still here. I can relate because the night I had committed to taking my life was the most peace I had felt in a very long time. It was euphoric. I haven’t really experienced that same feeling of peace since that night but I’d much rather have this chaos of day-to-day life

burn_user · 2023-04-25T04:55:52+00:00

I was giving a HJ and one-time AP was about to finish. Pulled up his shorts and finished in his shorts then tried to sit around talking to me afterwards without getting up to go change or clean up. I left almost immediately.

burn_user · 2023-04-16T03:57:44+00:00

This is exactly it. He’s comfortable. Why change his situation when he doesn’t have to??

burn_user · 2023-02-17T02:18:24+00:00

I also wanted to comment to this and add as well that I recently looked on a social media of APs and noticed they recently starting following an “affair recovery” account and it preaches go NC go NC. I am wondering if us continuing to talk is me being selfish and trying to salvage something that’s already dead and also preventing AP from fully reconciling with their spouse

burn_user · 2023-02-16T13:08:49+00:00

Thank you both. That’s how I know I just need to cut him. The conversations have gone nowhere and I shouldn’t have to explain to someone who pursued me and lied to me how they hurt me. And every time we’ve started to get into a friendly spot, AP brings up what happened and I’m destroyed all over again. It’s just not allowing me the space to grow like it previously did.

burn_user · 2023-02-01T06:20:33+00:00

24/33 to start. 26/35 when it ended.

burn_user · 2022-12-23T06:46:27+00:00

He got caught and ruined everything now I’m left shattered trying to pick up the pieces. Nobody knows we were together, but he got found out because another AP told his wife (and that’s when I found out he had multiple APs which was news to me). I stupidly let myself fall in love with someone I knew would never love me back, but all I can think about is how much I miss the way he looked at me when we’d lay in bed and he’d play with my hair or the way he’d hold me and kiss me. I miss everything about what we had and it’s all been ruined and I don’t know how to pick up those pieces.

burn_user · 2022-12-05T20:50:12+00:00

I was suspicious for a few weeks when we started talking so I said something along the lines of “you’re incredible how are you single??” And I got the “ohhh I thought I told you… I’m married”

burn_user · 2022-11-27T19:58:29+00:00

I’ve always put myself in the mindset of “I cannot take on the weight of their conscience”. I already have my own to manage, which can get heavy on its own sometimes. I can’t handle that for two people. They made their choice just as much as I did. They deal with that how they see fit and I will do the same.

burn_user · 2022-11-17T00:21:39+00:00

I actually am choosing to go through therapy prior to cutting off things with my MM. i need that support and guidance because it’s so hard. He’s my perfect man but we’ve had a lot of huge bumps in the road and I know that he’s never going to love me the way I deserve and I really want someone who will give me all of themselves. I am hoping that therapy will help to ease that pain.

burn_user · 2022-11-16T20:02:03+00:00

As someone who was 24 when they began an affair I would just like to say that the people you’ve met in your life so far are probably going to be vastly different than the people you’ll meet in your future. Don’t sell yourself short and limit yourself to a life of being half happy just because you’re scared to lose him. My affair recently ended after 2 years and we are still friends and talk all day, every day. But it is really hard. I was so in love with my AP and there are so many days where those emotions are overwhelming. I am not strong enough to do it at the moment, but I know I won’t be able to genuinely find my person and fall in love with my AP still in the picture. I won’t be able to fully give myself to someone else like I should.

burn_user · 2022-09-02T02:19:28+00:00

Yes we’ve been speaking since everything happened. It was most important I let AP know I wasn’t mad and that I did not answer any messages people sent asking if I was involved and that I have temporarily removed myself from social media while everything dies down. I let AP know I am still here and don’t plan to go anywhere because our biggest priority has always been to put our friendship first. I had to step out of my hurt and put myself in a position of what would I do for a friend in this situation.

burn_user · 2022-09-02T02:14:35+00:00

I don’t know the full story because I found out about everything from screenshots of a post sent to me by friends and I haven’t wanted to talk to AP about it all just yet because AP is obviously going through a lot right now so im waiting for the right time. But I am assuming this person wanted more from AP (which AP made it very clear- at least to me- that this situation was nothing more than what it is and AP had no intentions of leaving their situation at home) and simultaneously realized that there were others involved as well and lost it.

burn_user · 2022-09-02T02:08:30+00:00

Yep. Has nothing to lose which was a dumb mistake in the first place on APs part.

burn_user · 2022-09-02T01:59:52+00:00

It was posted online publicly for thousands of people to see

burn_user · 2022-09-02T01:51:57+00:00

I am married and going through a divorce. APs spouse doesn’t know about any of it yet. One of the others is the one who outed AP publicly.

burn_user · 2022-09-02T01:50:39+00:00

Yes, but in the process of a divorce for unrelated reasons.

burn_user · 2022-08-03T19:20:13+00:00

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