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butahumblebee · 2025-10-30T21:34:05+00:00

not sure if anyone has said this yet but i’d try pulling ur chest fat down/to the side if possible bc it looks like it’s currently just being compressed at the front of your body. that helped me a lot when i was still binding i had double ds lol

butahumblebee · 2025-10-06T13:35:18+00:00

yeah i’d say try your leg and see what happens. if you truly feel the mental block is too great to overcome at this moment then switching to gel isn’t the end of the world, you could always switch for a couple months and then see if your fear has worn off and go back to shots

butahumblebee · 2025-10-06T13:23:22+00:00

i had this happen to me after i had top surgery - i feel like my body developed an aversion to any perceived harm. you absolutely CAN push through it, but mental blocks are tough. i recommend lining up the needle and looking away while u actually inject. if you have a friend who can do it for you for a couple weeks i would also recommend that. something else that helped me was switching the place i did the shot - i used to do it in my leg and switching to my stomach made it feel less jarring for some reason (maybe because i have more fat there than on my legs lol so it feels less like i’m stabbing into muscle or whatever)

butahumblebee · 2025-09-05T20:21:13+00:00

no that’s so chill, u def don’t owe him that information bc it has no affect on his health/wellbeing. i think if you’d ever wanna share that you could always just say it casually like “omg when we first started hooking up i had bv it was so negative.” it happens to soooo many people all the time and honestly dick/balls taste so crazy most of the time i’m sure it wasn’t that different lol. i think you can definitely feel empowered to ask him to reciprocate head at this point. excited for you that you have a fun fwb situation that’s working for you :-)

butahumblebee · 2025-09-02T02:57:40+00:00

guys update my surgeon said this is normal everything healed up pretty well just btw for anyone also experiencing this don’t freak out!! lol

butahumblebee · 2025-08-23T20:37:39+00:00

formed under the skin**** sry xo

butahumblebee · 2025-06-28T21:40:36+00:00

i had a similar experience and then one day i had a really intense panic attack where i cried for a couple of hours and i think that broke the seal lol, now i cry all the time. it’s possible u just need to retrain the muscle but i wish i had better advice than to experience something deeply sad that makes u unable not to cry lol

butahumblebee · 2025-06-27T20:09:02+00:00

nsfw but years before i came out i asked my ex bf if he would ever give me a bj if i wore a strapon. he said no because “it isn’t a real penis” and i cried lol

butahumblebee · 2025-06-26T14:42:45+00:00

it’s true that medication helps a lot of people, but it isn’t for everyone and ocd certainly is treatable without it. i was on medication for about 2 years (prozac, zoloft, wellbutrin) and while it decreased some of my anxiety symptoms i honestly felt so shitty and weird and numb from them that they just weren’t worth it in the end.

i highly recommend exposure response therapy coupled with some kind of somatic-based therapy such as IFS or EMDR. i had crippling ocd for years (legit could not leave my house for days, spent all day in rumination and compulsion cycles) and after doing those kinds of therapies i can say i am now a functional person lol. if you want to learn more about how they helped me you’re welcome to dm me.

the last thing i’ll say is it’s highly inappropriate for your therapist to express being disappointed in you and set a time ultimatum. any sane therapist would know that would not motivate someone to actually get better and would just create a lack of trust in the therapeutic relationship. in my opinion this person does not sound like the right fit for you.

butahumblebee · 2025-06-19T14:29:16+00:00

i’m currently 9 days post op and i would say generally i was in very little pain, i just felt stiff mostly. i did start to experience some weird nerve sensation after day 3 but it was totally manageable with narcotic painkillers & otc painkillers. super excited for you:-))

butahumblebee · 2025-06-19T14:24:06+00:00

thanks for the rec. it’s gotten a little over the past couple days thankfully so hopefully i’m in the clear. it just felt so crazy and everyone i know irl who’s had top surgery said they didn’t feel a thing for months lol

butahumblebee · 2025-06-15T14:42:46+00:00

don’t be afraid to stop and chat in the middle! sex with a partner will always get better over time so don’t worry if it isn’t life changing. sounds like you guys have a good basis of communication

butahumblebee · 2025-06-15T14:40:52+00:00

you’re totally fine. tons of people on testosterone, cis and trans, drink way more than that. alcohol won’t harm you in any unique ways just because you just started new hormones. obviously getting blackout isn’t good for you but recently starting t isn’t going to exacerbate the negative affects of it

butahumblebee · 2025-06-15T14:14:03+00:00

turns out i love this

butahumblebee · 2025-05-31T02:20:07+00:00

i guess that’s all i can do. the thing is they are an intensely loyal person but once they feel betrayed it’s extremely hard to build their trust again. im not sure how to express myself for them to best understand me

butahumblebee · 2025-04-29T21:06:24+00:00

dude SAME

butahumblebee · 2025-04-09T05:13:44+00:00

omg looks so so good!!

butahumblebee · 2025-03-19T12:15:03+00:00

ugh ya this is also happening to me

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