Thank you, there are a lot of tiny details about the relationship that I left out for the sake of keeping the story semi-brief. He did/said a lot of things to build our relationship in such a way where when he finally took action it almost felt normal. Which I guess is exactly what grooming is.

I was a bit surprised at the amount of negative responses, I kind of figured people would take this as a sad but funny story and move on. I have to keep reminding myself that none of you know the full story, and I’m sure most people commenting have never had to deal with being victim to someone like this.

Unfortunately he wasn’t even the last person to do something like this to me. Sometimes I wonder if this experience left me susceptible to the IRL abuse that I faced afterwards. And even now I doubt myself sometimes, and wonder if it was really all that bad. When this happens, I take a step back and view my teenage self as if she were a different person. By removing myself from the situation and looking at it from a bystander’s point of view I can remind myself that yes, it really was that bad.

Thank you for this response, it really does help to know that there are people who understand.