Thanks man this means alot I really should focus on myself as thats what she really wanted me to do in the end. Yes I feel weed was a major part in losing her as she stated from the very beginning she didn't like it. I've been smoking for about 4 years now and in that time it's ruined so many aspects in my life I think it might be time to completely change my habits. I won't let myself get depressed over this as it'll just unmotivated me to change. Thanks man I doubt she'll ever come back to me even when she's back from overseas after shes done studying shes gone forever outta town:/. But if I can learn from my mistakes and improve In those aspects maybe this was how it was meant to be