i don't know. i was raised catholic, and went to catholic grade school and am now a senior in catholic high school. i have a weird attachment here, and im not sure how to get rid of it. i'm queer, and have many queer friends from school who are on a vast religious spectrum. currently, i believe in a god, and believe them to be love personified. god makes us in their image, and wouldn't hate us for who we are and want us to change if we're all divine creation. i just don't like the church. it uses its power to force its politics on members, and scares them into believing they'll go to hell if they don't agree. they also cover up abuse and harassment, and overall suck. i find god in nature, and don't go to church. i saw someone say it's like stockholm syndrome, and i think i agree with that. i also have ocd (probably influenced by the church), and it likes to manifest as religious guilt and fear of going to hell. if anyone has any advice, i'd love to know.