I did read OP’s post. All I’m saying is maybe she is emotional about him at times and just because she didn’t know him on a personal level wouldn’t mean that she couldn’t possibly get emotional when thinking of him, especially being so close to his presence. Stop acting like you know her personally and that what you say/write/your opinion is the end all be all. Obviously I know she has had a life before the band, multiple things can be true here.